[ Or maybe he just does, because things have changed now. People don't court another for even years and they don't dive right into marriage, and not every relationship is a great love. Even this, even if they blur a lot of lines it isn't quite there and maybe that's why he's uncertain about everything.
It isn't like Arthur and Guinevere, which is what he's seen. What he knows.
What he probably wants.
It isn't that he thinks it's impossible, but trying to get a middle ground is hard and he feels like he keeps stumbling. The fact that he felt offended that kissing could be used as a means of gaining the upper hand against someone, where you could be better than them and that even mattering... it shows a lot of what it means to him.
He wants to kiss her, of course he does, he'd spend all day doing it if he could but.
He just lets out a long breath against her, saying softly, sadly: ] I'm trying.
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It isn't like Arthur and Guinevere, which is what he's seen. What he knows.
What he probably wants.
It isn't that he thinks it's impossible, but trying to get a middle ground is hard and he feels like he keeps stumbling. The fact that he felt offended that kissing could be used as a means of gaining the upper hand against someone, where you could be better than them and that even mattering... it shows a lot of what it means to him.
He wants to kiss her, of course he does, he'd spend all day doing it if he could but.
He just lets out a long breath against her, saying softly, sadly: ] I'm trying.