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[ His hands slip down from her face to encircle her waist instead, pulling her close. His head dips to kiss her neck gently, eyes shutting as he just holds her for the moment. He gave himself enough time for this before meeting Shigeru anyway. It's fine. ]

[ this is so much better than yelling at him, calling him stupid, or hearing so many hurtful things. she wishes this could last longer, but he's probably going to let go soon.

so she may as well say what she has in mind, again. ]

Merlin.

[ It is, really it's more of a build up of anxiety that he hasn't let out in the right way. He should have just said things bit by bit over time, and now there's just a black cloud of doubt looming overhead.

He really is an idiot. Especially when it comes to this.

Instead of replying in full though, he murmurs a soft: ] Mm?

[ she pulls away this time, and just looks up at him. it'll be a few days until she'll see his face again, so may as well remember what it looks like before it has cuts all over or something. :') ]

Can you wait here? I'm- I'm going to get something. For you.

[ His teeth drag over his lip when she pulls back and it's like it's over too soon. After this though, he doesn't want to refuse her anything, so he gives her a nod. ]

Of course.

[ athena immediately turns and heads to her room, and it only takes a few moments for her to come back out. balled up in her fist as she walks back to the door is something tied to a long red ribbon.

once she's back at the door and in front of him, she opens her palm revealing her moon earring tied to the ribbon. ]

Like last time, [ she says, looking hopeful. despite her smile, though, widget's still crying. ]

[ He waits quietly when she walks out, though he can't say he expected this when she returns with the moon earring tied to the long red ribbon. His hand gently covers hers, but he doesn't actually say anything for a moment.

He kisses her.

It's a slow lean just in case she doesn't want it, because he knows she's still just as sad as he is. Maybe even more so. His hand doesn't let go though, instead it only twists to entwine their fingers, locking the earring between them. ]

[ it's not comforting, the kiss, but she kisses him back, holding onto his hand tightly. she knows it's not safe where he's going, and she knows he's going to get hurt, physically this time. if she could treasure this moment that he's still physically okay, then she will, and take advantage of it.

she's going to miss this, even though she knows her feelings won't waver. somehow, she thinks that his are. ]

[ It isn't when he's hesitant about her response, but as soon as she does respond that changes. They're still in the stupid doorway, so he shifts her slightly, his other hand at her hip as he nudges her towards the door frame. That's when it starts.

It's a kiss with way more emotion to it than he's probably poured in before. Love is at the forefront, of course, as is trust, loyalty and need for her to a point of desperation for this to end alright.

His hand squeezes hers tight until the shape of the moon probably imprints on both of their palms. The red ribbon connecting them both like the red ribbon of fate.

He just needs to find his path back to her again, that's what this boils down to.

He doesn't want to feel like this. He wants this--this feeling he pours into the kiss--to be the only reality they have. ]

Edited 2016-05-01 15:34 (UTC)

[ she's definitely surprised when her back is suddenly on the door frame, and she makes a noise when she hits it. but this is fine. she doesn't mind it at all. in fact, she falls into whatever spell this is rather quickly and returns the kisses he gives her with more of her own.

she doesn't mean to compete on who might be the best kisser right now, but it does seem that each kiss she gives gets more and more passionate than the last. ]

[ Thankfully it isn't a spell or it would be a lot more disastrous after. It is, however, a moment where they can remember what it should feel like even if the doorway isn't the best place for it.

Being competitive without saying that's what it is... that's fine too. He groans into her mouth when she kisses back with even more passion until finally he slides his hand away from hers, grips the earring in his palm, and finally leans enough to nudge the back of her thigh with the back of his hand.

His other hand drops from her side to drag down, and this time his hand is free to tug her leg up against his side. ]

[ oh god may no one be passing by right now because this sure is a sight to see. or unsee. whichever. and thank god ai is still asleep. may she stay in her room for a while longer because while athena's not sure where this is headed, she just follows her instinct and keeps kissing him.

with her hands now both free, one rests on his chest while the other makes way for his hair to mess it up. she doesn't mean to. it's just in the heat of the moment. ]

[ It takes a moment (partly because it's hard to concentrate on doing something else while your tongue is in someone's mouth) but he manages to twist the ribbon around his fingers to the point where there's no chance the earring will fall. That done, he lets himself take 1/4 of a step back to give her room as he lifts her against the frame of the door. She'll feel the earring dig into her thigh where he's got it safely tucked for the time being, though it's probably a little uncomfortable as he has to lift that leg a little higher to get it past the hilt of the sword strapped to his side.

But Athena is light. He's used to dragging along heavier cargo by a long shot, especially when her weight is supported by the door frame too.

And he doesn't break the kiss for a second, drowning in it like he'll never catch his breath again. ]

Edited 2016-05-01 16:16 (UTC)

[ merlin should probably break the kiss sometime soon before athena continues to fall-- not for him because that's already been said and done--but for this kiss. she might end up wanting more, no, she already wants more as she locks him in between her legs as they continue to pour out their feelings for one another.

because the longer they do this, the longer she'll be crying every night that he's away. ]

[ He doesn't right away. Soon might not be soon enough, not when he presses against her and lets both his hands slide back along her thighs until they curve over her behind to push her just a teeny bit higher up. He squeezes once, then finally pulls his mouth back with a gasp, struggling for air like he hasn't breathed in days.

He hasn't, maybe. Not like this. With how she's secure in place though, it gives the hand with the earring in place the freedom to reach up, pressing it gently over her heart. ]

I'll keep safe. [ It's the first thing he whispers, still trying to get his breath back in the meanwhile. Then softer, adds: ] Put it on for me? [ That's when he finally turns his hand to let some of the ribbon loosen from between his fingers, holding it out between them.

He feels more sure of himself already, though maybe he's still only making things worse at the moment. ]

[ she obviously didn't mind how he was treating her just then, but now it appears to her that she probably should get off him. they're they're for everybody to see, and she wouldn't know how to explain this to ai, nor would she know how to explain this to their neighbours.

she catches her breath, as well, slowly breathing in and out as her eyes are closed, head leaned back against the door frame. when she finally manages words, though-- ]

Merlin.

Put me down?

[ With her eyes closed she can't see it, but he nods, being a lot more careful when he shifts his hands to her legs, holding her steady as he moves her down. His own eyes are wide open, memorising her face at that moment just in case it's the last time he'll see her like this.

He should have more faith, but he's used to a different reaction back home. He knows that back home he would have been executed over and over so many times for the things in that letter.

It's hard to break that kind of thinking, but he wants to -- that's part of the reason for this stupid trip to begin with.

Quietly, he kneels down onto one knee, pressing the earring into her hand. ]

[ once her eyes are opened, her jaw almost drops at the sight of him. it's not familiar at all, though it really does feel like he's saying goodbye for good. and it's more than upsetting.

still, she's cried enough in front of him to do it again. she can just do it in her own free time, in the confines of her room.

she swallows, then takes the ribbon to put it around his neck. she looks at her earring—her treasure—now by his heart. and she can only hope he takes care of it, as well as himself. ]

[ Let it be known that he's never kneeled willingly for anyone else, Athena. It isn't something he'd like to make a habit of, but hopefully when he does speak again it might give her a little more hope for his return.

His head lifts once the earring is in place, hand fingering the object tenderly as he looks at her face. He moves to take her hand once she finishes, pulling it close to kiss it. ]

Athena. [ He gives her hand a squeeze. ] Just bear with me a little longer, please? I just need a little more time. I don't want to keep giving the same excuse, that I'm still getting used to this, that I'm struggling with the differences between here and home, so I'm going to figure it out.

When I come back... [ Both of his hands cover hers. ] ...I'll never do this to you again.

I know I'm in the wrong.

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Please, get up, [ is all she says, looking to the side. tears are welling in her eyes and she's trying her best not to move else they'll start falling again.

it's comforting to know that he does plan on coming back, though. to her. it didn't seem like he wanted to earlier, or two days ago. she's stopped texting him her daily good mornings and goodnights since that day she got back because she wanted to give him space. and she won't be able to contact him again for now, she knows that, but--

hopefully, they'll be back to normal when he gets back.

she's confident her feelings won't change even after knowing more about him, and she's all the more determined by this to not let her feelings be swayed. ]

[ He's slow in standing, still not pulling his hand away. Though he does bend to the side to tug his bag on now, holding the strap in place with his other hand. Then his hand slides away, and considering she's looking to the side, he just leaves one final kiss on her cheek. ]

I'll see you soon.

[ He turns to go then, not looking back until he gets to the elevator to press the button, head resting against the side of the door. There's a painful twist in his tummy that he tries to ignore, but he means those words.

Soon. ]

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