[ It isn't enough though, he can tell with how her breathing is still a mess, and he can't actually see what she's going through so all he can do is hold on and hope that it's his voice that's reaching her. He hasn't tried it with her before, but after what happened in the prison he's willing to try it here too.
Softly, she'll hear a soft song sang quietly into her ear. It's not exactly perfect, but considering the bracelet doesn't seem to work here as she's conscious right now, it's a desperate hope.
When she finally moves to flop on him he pulls her in against himself, curling her in close. ] What happened?
[ her movements should be slow because she's still shaking but when she finally hears his voice aagain, she hastily moves her arms up and around to wrap around his neck to hug him as she burries her face by his shoulder, desperate for the contact. desperate for safety.
she doesn't tell him what happened, though. not the specifics, anyway. ] I saw something bad. [ she does recall telling him the story about the blizzard before, though. that's... that's enough, isn't it? ] Did you-- Are you okay?
[ There's a soft noise of surprise as she flings herself up, but he doesn't wait to return the hug, arms tight around her waist, pulling her into himself. ]
I'm fine, don't worry about that now. What caused it? [ He has no idea it's for the same reason sadly, but here they are........ ]
[ she shakes her head. she doesn't know either, but she'll probably figure it out when she has her first cup of tea or when she starts cooking. ]
I don't know? It's never happened before.
[ she tries to push herself up and rest on her elbows to get a better look at him, though. it really is good to see him again. it just feels so much better to have him around. ]
Promise me that you're okay.
[ and she'll be able to tell if he's lying, too!! :T ]
[ He swallows, frowning because it really did seem to come out of no where. He knows in his case that the memory was something fresh and raw. Maybe it is for her though? She isn't exactly telling him much :( ]
I will be okay? [ Well, it isn't a lie. He just needs a few minutes. In the meantime he slides his hands up and down her back, looking up at her. ] How are you feeling now?
[ she leans in for another quick kiss on the lips. she just can't get enough of him, honestly. 2thirsty. ]
I'd like that.
[ she closes her eyes and just takes everything in. her heart is beating so fast. with the moons being full and the gardens being such a nice place, she thinks the atmosphere is so romantic. this was a surprise meant for him, and she definitely didn't expect her emotions to overload on her as well. ]
Maybe tomorrow night, we'll see. [ When she closes her eyes he lets his own flutter, appreciating how gorgeous she looks, how calm this is, how the sounds of ripples in the water and the gentle breeze help make the mood too. ]
[ she averts her eyes from his before lowering herself again. she's looking to the side now, staring at her mirror when she sees something weird that shouldn't belong. something white and smoky? what is that... ]
Better, just-- [ she blinks a couple of times to see if it's just her imagination or not.
it isn't.
she lets go of him and gets up, turning to face the other way so she can get a better look at what it is. ]
Hey, little guy... What are you doing here?
[ she probably looks like a loon what with talking to thin air though. ]
[ she nods excitedly, resting her head on him again. she doesn't even mind how cramped they are. this is so peaceful. it's almost as soothing as waking up next to him tbh. ]
[ Just...? He opens his mouth to ask when she's pulling away and he ends up having to lean up on his elbow to get a look at where she's talking to. There isn't anything there, but his own fox friend is curled up at the bottom of the bed.
Hearing her talk makes it jump a little, skittishly moving to finally stand between Athena and her fox. It isn't like she can see that one, but he can. It helps her look like less of a loon. ]
[ He nods a little, not as much as her but really he appreciates the idea just as much. ] Hopefully we can come up with a long enough list to keep us busy for a while.
[ What on earth is she doing? His fox isn't moving, just looking at her warily like she's going to do something violent.
This may actually be an accurate representation of his soul at times like this.
Merlin's hand reaches out to make her pause, holding her steady. ] What are you doing?
[ As he reaches out to her though, the fox is still running and definitely crashes into him leaving him to sit there silently now, hand hovering in the air with his mouth a little open. His eyes look glazed over again though, so maybe everything is just a mess today. ]
but ah... at least merlin sees something that isn't related to death for a change. it's a much shorter memory as it ends when athena asks if she can kiss simon again. before she can react though, an overwhelming need to sit down and attempt not to throw up hits her. she just covers her mouth, stopping her body from releasing anything.
and at that moment, athena forgot what she does for a living here in the colony. ]
He'd actually prefer the death. His everyday life is so chaotic and full of destruction, at least it's easier to swallow. While she might have been shaking before, this time it's his turn when his eyes squeeze shut and that same hand that reached for her instead moves to his mouth to bite down so he doesn't say anything.
when he lets go of her, she just dashes out of the room only to come back five minutes later after having thrown up. it's even painful too, because all she's throwing up is water since she hasn't eaten... today was going to be the first day of her mission to comfort merlin, too! this is terrible.
cerealia, why you gotta be this way?
her hand is on her forehead when she enters her room again, her fox tailing her behind. she's not sure what caused merlin to freeze up, but hopefully he's better now? ]
[ Because CERES will never be kind, that's why. He isn't still frozen, but his hands are covering his face when she comes back in, and even though he tries to play it off as rubbing his face to wake off, she'll know. ]
I don't know. [ He sounds incredibly off though, like his voice, heart and expressions don't quite slot together. ]
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