[ Look he's just getting used to the fact that this is okay... There aren't expectations of keeping your hands to yourself, to keeping things as tame as possible these days. He's breathing harder when she settles against him, mouth dry as his hands slide up and down against her sides to soothe himself as well as her.
His eyes close, a soft smile forming on his lips when she holds his face and whispers that. ]
I love you too. [ It's in the same tone as when his voice dipped before too though, low and a little croaky. ]
[ his hands are so warm... she loves that, too. it's really strange to be touched like this, but she's getting used to it at a fast pace, for some reason. probably because they keep meeting up at the rooftop like this. and they'll probably keep doing things like this so long as they're happy together.
she kisses his forehead and just rests her chin on his head for a while. this probably means that her chest is so close to his face.
gomen.
but she's trying to relax and catch her breath, too. ]
[ He makes a small noise when she shifts like that and okay jesus. He needs jesus apparently. His fingers curl into her dress, twisting the fabric a little as he grips onto her. His teeth slide over his tooth, digging into the skin and he closes his eyes tight.
He tries to keep his head deathly still, but uses his hands to try and calm himself by flattening them against her sides, dragging them down to her hips then drawing forward until they're both against her legs. His thumbs rub circles there. Given how close she is now though, she'll probably feel the quick puffs of air against her skin as he tries to breath normally and fails horribly. ]
Athena... [ He starts softly, heart feeling like it's lodged in his throat because honestly he's only admitting(?) it now because of how she seems to be okay with this but.
It takes him a moment to gather the courage too. Even then, it's really quite quiet. ] Can I touch you? [ Obviously he doesn't mean where he's already touching her but there we go-- Hope she didn't expect to catch her breath too quickly. ]
[ she slides downwards, making some distance between them just so her breasts don't end up flattening on his face when she leans down. with a question like that, she can't help but just stare at him. an answer isn't coming at all, mostly because her mind's gone places already. if he pays attention to widget, he's already shut off again, too.
she closes her eyes and a hand moves to hold merlin's. if he lets her, she'll lead that hand to where her heart is at first. it's beating wildly, as if it's about to pop out of her chest, but her grip on him is light. and there's even a pull downwards coming from her, too.
[ His own heart is hammering when she slides back down and he finally opens his eyes again. He has to blink a few times to look at her, but actually forces himself to not look away like he wants to. It's embarrassing that it's taken him this long to ask when it isn't the first time he's thought about it, but given their positioning before it was a little more difficult to... ignore.
He swallows when she takes his hand, having no problems with her leading him along. He watches quietly, his own eyes fluttering when he feels her heartbeat under his palm, mirroring his own which feels like it might explode.
It's the pull downwards that gives him the courage to slide his hand against her. At first the touch is light and hesitatant, following the curve of her breast rather than actually putting much pressure there. It's only when his fingers brush underneath that his eyes flicker back up to her face. His breathing speeds up as his wrist tilts a little until he actually cups her breast instead and gives it a small squeeze. ]
[ her mouth opens slightly to let out a breath, but it's not heavy, at least. she seems calm on the outside, though she's totally nervous and she has no idea what the hell to do now. is she supposed to ask if she could touch him back? for all her talk about the future and making out and all that, even she has no idea what to actually do at a time like this. . .
she lets out another breath at the squeeze, eyes still closed because really. just looking at him or where his hand is would just make things more awkward, and they're already progressing and going somewhere with this and she'd rather not ruin it. ]
[ His other hand moves to cup her cheek, thumb stroking over the skin as a point of focus for him as well. It is a little awkward, after all, given that he's just as nervous, worried that he'll mess up because this isn't anything he's prepared himself for either and it's only his imagination that has taken him this far. Slowly, he lets his hand move in a circular motion, breath hitching as this time he does actually add a little more pressure. When he ends up stopping this time there's a harder firmness to the squeeze, pushing his hand up into her as his fingers tighten.
And his mouth captures hers, his hand on her face sliding up into her hair as he takes her lower lip between his own and licks along the skin there.
And this is the point where his own body is reacting a lot more than he expected. He isn't really thinking about it, but hopefully his jeans will hide the fact that he's probably half hard by now, though maybe his heart won't be as easy to disguise when it picks up in speed and sounds like it's palpitating at times. ]
[ she tries to hold it in, but a moan comes out of her. but at least it isn't loud, and she even whispers his name before his lips manage to grab hers.
she's let go of his wrist by this point and it's her hands' turn to play around now, not that they would do anywhere sensitive. one squeezes his shoulder for balance as she leans forward into the kiss, and as such, applying even more pressure to the squeeze merlin gives her breast. the other hand moves to his other shoulder, a bit slower than the other.
her breathing's gotten heavier, that's for sure, but it's not a bad thing. she doesn't consider it a bad thing, anyway. especially with the way widget's lit up again - green this time, to show that she's... well, happy about this.
ah... ]
because it's the first time he's touching a girl :(
[ Like he can pay attention to Widget right now when his skin feels like it's on fire. His mouth feels like it's burning up too when she leans into the kiss and this time he actually tries to use his tongue in the kiss as well. The hand in her hair shifts, accidentally knocking off the hat and in turn messing up her hair. It's taking so much concentration to focus on two things at one already though that his hand is honestly just moving on instinct now.
His hand grips her hair, not enough to hurt but there's a definite slight pull there as he tries to keep her as close as possible. There are breaks in the kisses, but he's practically gasping and he ends up squirming slightly under her when the heat gets to be too much and he breaks the kiss properly. He probably looks like a hot mess honestly. ]
[ ah... athena isn't the least bit surprised when merlin starts using his tongue. this definitely isn't her first time making out with somebody (thanks, prom!) so she has a bit more experience in using her tongue back as the kiss gets deeper and steamier. she feels the pressure of his hand when the hat gets knocked off and his fingers in her hair, but that's okay. she can already tell she looks like a mess... it's fine.
when he finally breaks the kiss though, all she can say is ]
[ It's impossible to not groan when she actually returns it too, and it's just as much of a guide because he's going this blindly other than what the stupid video he saw before told him. Despite the information in that, he finds his mind is blank while trying to do this and he's losing himself into the heat of it. Logic is not easy when you have a lap full of Athena Cykes.
Once the kiss is broken though he can't even speak, he just breathes hard and looks like he's literally had his mind blown. He has really because when his hand finally slides down from her hair, both hands finally lowering to curl around her he just holds on and presses both of his lips together like he can't believe that just happened.
He leans into her this time, burying his face against her neck while he tries to calm the fuck down.
It's only then that he murmurs a soft: ] Yeah.
[ Why had he been so worried about this again?
Though he is now realising just how much of an effect this has had on him considering he's shaking a little but thankfully the beat of his heart is probably spiking out of control on the joy side of things. No worries there, Athena. ]
[ yeah... athena can't believe this happened either. but why she thinks so is probably a whole different story. she can't help but smile, so she bites her lower lip instead, giggling a bit. she's just so happy, and the emotions she's hearing from him is infectious, too.
she already said what she wanted to say, though. "wow". just that. what else is she supposed to say at a time like this? ]
[ Well he got out the "Can I touch you", maybe one day he'll admit to having scandalous thoughts at times. They'll probably only get worse now anyway. His breath slowly starts to even out, and eventually (after a few minutes) he pulls back enough to tug off his jacket.
The back of his neck especially feels like it's on fire and he probably should have yanked it off when they started. It isn't like he wastes any time before he's hugging her again though, resting his cheek against her shoulder as he peeks at her face.
It's kind of amazing that instead of her blacking out it ended up like this, isn't it?
Though no, okay. Once he's calm enough he lets his eyes shut, lets his hand move to rub her back slowly and murmurs: ] Remember when I said I thought about you before going to sleep?
[ this hug is nice. and it means more now—now that they've shared such an intimate moment together. he's so warm and he really does feel like home. maybe this is what love really is.
her hands move to the back of his neck again, locking him basically with her hands, fingers intertwined.
[ It's nice to be pulled in like this, where he can keep his eyes shut and try and will away the other feelings thrumming under his skin. To try and calm down to just sit and enjoy this. His eyes flutter when she shifts but he doesn't move more than he already has.
It's embarrassing, but considering what just happened, it's a lot easier to admit it. ] Sometimes it was thoughts about this. About what just happened. [ He clears his throat. ] Or it has recently, anyway.
[ He does peek up at her when she laughs, though he isn't taking offence by it. Really, by standards nowadays he's pretty... behind??? Most guys, with the sounds of it, would have thought of it pretty early on. Not that he hasn't appreciated how attractive she is, of course but... this is a whole new level.
This time it's his turn to let out a tiny laugh, letting it out with a puff of air to quieten it a bit. ]
[ Finally lifting his head from her he looks her straight in the eye. He drags his teeth over his lip, lifting his hands to cup her face. There's a soft smile on his own face. ]
It's supposed to mean that you really don't take me seriously enough when I tell you that you're beautiful. It also means that I don't just mean your appearance. [ One hand drops to rest where she placed his hand earlier, resting it over her heart. ] Here too.
[ The hand still on her cheek moves so his thumb rubs over her lip. ]
[ it's not that she doesn't take him seriously, but-- it's something else when somebody tells you you're beautiful. especially when you're used to just being the only person thinking it. and the more merlin keeps talking, the hotter she feels and it shows with the way her cheeks flush. he'll likely be able to feel it too, same with how her heart stops for a split second.
it's insane how much she can grow to like him by the day. there's just no limit to how much she likes--loves him.
she blinks and just stares back at him. or tries to, anyway. but while she'd normally be shameless and full of confidence, her shy side is showing and her eyes start darting all over the place. but they rest back on his eyes eventually, eyeing her reflection in his eyes.
she moves to tilt her head to the side, mouth open, but no words come out.
eventually-- ] I'm not-- thank you-- just-- [ ah... this is so tough. ]
[ It's endearing to tell the truth. Of course she's cute when she's confident and proud of herself, but this shyer side where she struggles to look at him and her skin flushes hotter... Well it is hotter. It isn't helping his current dilemma at all when she stumbles over herself, gets awkward in a way that isn't problematic except for an area of himself that is struggling to keep up (or down as it may be) with new developments.
He exhales slowly, slides his thumbs over her cheeks and carries on. ] You are. You really are. Whether it's when you're like this and you're unsure of yourself or when you're excited over something. Whether it's when you need a boost in confidence because you're down or you're getting yourself into trouble. You're more than I could ever have wished for. More than I deserve.
[ He pulls her head to rest against his own, eyes closing. ] And you keep wearing these clothes that... [ A soft laugh slips out. ] ...keep making me forget myself.
[ this is WAY TOO MUCH. he's too mushy and it's, of course, making her feel fluffy inside but it's far too much because there's so much sincerity that she starts crying. there's a sniff before one of her hands let go of her other hand to smush it on merlin's face. ]
Stop-- [ and then that late comment comes and she doesn't even know what to think anymore. ] I'm just being myself, okay?
[ Even if it's a little uncomfortable to have a hand smushed against his face, he can't help but grin because of how much of a mess she's becoming. This is definitely better than what the alternative could have been from before. His own hand moves to swipe a few tears away, though his other hand moves to take the hand she has pushed against him so he can gently turn it to kiss her palm. ]
Exactly my point. Yourself is a pretty amazing thing.
[ this is definitely too much for her to bear that if she were a robot, she'd have overloaded already and broke down. good thing she isn't. but she is somebody who moves via instinct rather than logic first.
and this time, she's following something her body's learned from a certain someone.
none of her arms are around his neck now, and she uses her free hand to push him down to the blankets as she kisses him.
[ Good thing she isn't a robot, because those things are about to go crazy. That isn't the point though, he really should have been more careful because he doesn't expect her to push him back onto the blankets.
It's too late to stop her once his back lands there and her lips are already on his so he can't even tell her don't because...
because. Well.
His hands automatically move to grip at her back as he tries to stay deadly still, though he does kiss her back and is effectively shut up.
Mostly. A tiny moan might have slipped out while he's pushed down, but it's more because of how they shift and this really wasn't what he intended to happen. Athena why. ]
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His eyes close, a soft smile forming on his lips when she holds his face and whispers that. ]
I love you too. [ It's in the same tone as when his voice dipped before too though, low and a little croaky. ]
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she kisses his forehead and just rests her chin on his head for a while. this probably means that her chest is so close to his face.
gomen.
but she's trying to relax and catch her breath, too. ]
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He tries to keep his head deathly still, but uses his hands to try and calm himself by flattening them against her sides, dragging them down to her hips then drawing forward until they're both against her legs. His thumbs rub circles there. Given how close she is now though, she'll probably feel the quick puffs of air against her skin as he tries to breath normally and fails horribly. ]
Athena... [ He starts softly, heart feeling like it's lodged in his throat because honestly he's only admitting(?) it now because of how she seems to be okay with this but.
It takes him a moment to gather the courage too. Even then, it's really quite quiet. ] Can I touch you? [ Obviously he doesn't mean where he's already touching her but there we go-- Hope she didn't expect to catch her breath too quickly. ]
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she closes her eyes and a hand moves to hold merlin's. if he lets her, she'll lead that hand to where her heart is at first. it's beating wildly, as if it's about to pop out of her chest, but her grip on him is light. and there's even a pull downwards coming from her, too.
that should be enough of a yes, right? ]
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He swallows when she takes his hand, having no problems with her leading him along. He watches quietly, his own eyes fluttering when he feels her heartbeat under his palm, mirroring his own which feels like it might explode.
It's the pull downwards that gives him the courage to slide his hand against her. At first the touch is light and hesitatant, following the curve of her breast rather than actually putting much pressure there. It's only when his fingers brush underneath that his eyes flicker back up to her face. His breathing speeds up as his wrist tilts a little until he actually cups her breast instead and gives it a small squeeze. ]
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she lets out another breath at the squeeze, eyes still closed because really. just looking at him or where his hand is would just make things more awkward, and they're already progressing and going somewhere with this and she'd rather not ruin it. ]
sweats
And his mouth captures hers, his hand on her face sliding up into her hair as he takes her lower lip between his own and licks along the skin there.
And this is the point where his own body is reacting a lot more than he expected. He isn't really thinking about it, but hopefully his jeans will hide the fact that he's probably half hard by now, though maybe his heart won't be as easy to disguise when it picks up in speed and sounds like it's palpitating at times. ]
god why
she's let go of his wrist by this point and it's her hands' turn to play around now, not that they would do anywhere sensitive. one squeezes his shoulder for balance as she leans forward into the kiss, and as such, applying even more pressure to the squeeze merlin gives her breast. the other hand moves to his other shoulder, a bit slower than the other.
her breathing's gotten heavier, that's for sure, but it's not a bad thing. she doesn't consider it a bad thing, anyway. especially with the way widget's lit up again - green this time, to show that she's... well, happy about this.
ah... ]
because it's the first time he's touching a girl :(
His hand grips her hair, not enough to hurt but there's a definite slight pull there as he tries to keep her as close as possible. There are breaks in the kisses, but he's practically gasping and he ends up squirming slightly under her when the heat gets to be too much and he breaks the kiss properly. He probably looks like a hot mess honestly. ]
sweats with you
when he finally breaks the kiss though, all she can say is ]
Wow.
[ feels like deja vu. ]
sweats further... just give him a moment now ok
Once the kiss is broken though he can't even speak, he just breathes hard and looks like he's literally had his mind blown. He has really because when his hand finally slides down from her hair, both hands finally lowering to curl around her he just holds on and presses both of his lips together like he can't believe that just happened.
He leans into her this time, burying his face against her neck while he tries to calm the fuck down.
It's only then that he murmurs a soft: ] Yeah.
[ Why had he been so worried about this again?
Though he is now realising just how much of an effect this has had on him considering he's shaking a little but thankfully the beat of his heart is probably spiking out of control on the joy side of things. No worries there, Athena. ]
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she already said what she wanted to say, though. "wow". just that. what else is she supposed to say at a time like this? ]
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The back of his neck especially feels like it's on fire and he probably should have yanked it off when they started. It isn't like he wastes any time before he's hugging her again though, resting his cheek against her shoulder as he peeks at her face.
It's kind of amazing that instead of her blacking out it ended up like this, isn't it?
Though no, okay. Once he's calm enough he lets his eyes shut, lets his hand move to rub her back slowly and murmurs: ] Remember when I said I thought about you before going to sleep?
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her hands move to the back of his neck again, locking him basically with her hands, fingers intertwined.
she rests her head on his before she answers. ]
Yeah? What about it?
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It's embarrassing, but considering what just happened, it's a lot easier to admit it. ] Sometimes it was thoughts about this. About what just happened. [ He clears his throat. ] Or it has recently, anyway.
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Can I tell you a secret?
[ nah, she doesn't end up waiting for him to answer. ]
I think about these things, too. I mean— Not before bed or anything, but... I've definitely had thoughts. [ a pause. ] Of us.
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This time it's his turn to let out a tiny laugh, letting it out with a puff of air to quieten it a bit. ]
You're making it impossible not to.
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What's that supposed to mean?
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It's supposed to mean that you really don't take me seriously enough when I tell you that you're beautiful. It also means that I don't just mean your appearance. [ One hand drops to rest where she placed his hand earlier, resting it over her heart. ] Here too.
[ The hand still on her cheek moves so his thumb rubs over her lip. ]
I could keep kissing you all night.
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it's insane how much she can grow to like him by the day. there's just no limit to how much she likes--loves him.
she blinks and just stares back at him. or tries to, anyway. but while she'd normally be shameless and full of confidence, her shy side is showing and her eyes start darting all over the place. but they rest back on his eyes eventually, eyeing her reflection in his eyes.
she moves to tilt her head to the side, mouth open, but no words come out.
eventually-- ] I'm not-- thank you-- just-- [ ah... this is so tough. ]
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He exhales slowly, slides his thumbs over her cheeks and carries on. ] You are. You really are. Whether it's when you're like this and you're unsure of yourself or when you're excited over something. Whether it's when you need a boost in confidence because you're down or you're getting yourself into trouble. You're more than I could ever have wished for. More than I deserve.
[ He pulls her head to rest against his own, eyes closing. ] And you keep wearing these clothes that... [ A soft laugh slips out. ] ...keep making me forget myself.
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Stop-- [ and then that late comment comes and she doesn't even know what to think anymore. ] I'm just being myself, okay?
[ and another sniff. ]
You're making me so happy right now.
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Exactly my point. Yourself is a pretty amazing thing.
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and this time, she's following something her body's learned from a certain someone.
none of her arms are around his neck now, and she uses her free hand to push him down to the blankets as she kisses him.
maybe this will finally shut him up. ]
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It's too late to stop her once his back lands there and her lips are already on his so he can't even tell her don't because...
because. Well.
His hands automatically move to grip at her back as he tries to stay deadly still, though he does kiss her back and is effectively shut up.
Mostly. A tiny moan might have slipped out while he's pushed down, but it's more because of how they shift and this really wasn't what he intended to happen. Athena why. ]
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