[ she takes a deep breath then. at least him giving her contact is a good sign?! sort of... ]
Do you-- [ ah... she swallows and decides to switch the tv off. ] I really didn't mean to--
It's obvious you don't want to talk about it, and I don't know if you really are fine or not [ because when she says things are fine she doesn't really mean it so who knows if he's doing the same?! ]. Please let me make it up to you.
[ Sort of, it isn't like he's holding her hand or hugging her. He's keeping his hands firmly on the ice cream. That in itself is a sign he isn't really fine but. His eyes shut when she talks about it anyway, and he lets out a soft sigh of resignation. ]
Why would I want to talk about the fact that I made my girlfriend cry because I... [ He bites his lip. ] Did you...? Was I...? [ He swallows and then starts stabbing the ice cream with his spoon.
[ Because she wouldn't let it drop :( He doesn't want to... but. After she says the rest he pulls his head away to drop it back against the couch instead. ]
You weren't pressuring me to begin with, it's just... hard. [ He actually does flush just slightly because of why that is, but. Actually saying it. Well. ] Because you weren't sure about what I should do to... help you. Um. Y'know. So I thought if I researched it, it'd take some of that pressure off both of us...
It just made it worse, didn't it?
[ He doesn't know anymore... Athena this is such a confusing experience. ]
[ she actually has to reflect on that question. there's nothing he could do to make things worse. and it's why she stays still for a while before saying anything. ]
I thought I was. I'm sorry. [ she presses her lips together to form a line, unamused with herself. ] Thanks for thinking of me. You didn't make things worse; it was sweet.
[ He stays just as quiet, swirling the ice cream as it melts in his hand. He takes a mouthful while she's thinking, before finally glancing at her. His hand finally moves to brush away some of her hair. ]
Maybe when we first started dating I felt like it was too soon for a lot of things but. Not now. I'd be an idiot to not want everything with you. I mean-- [ Jesus this is embarrassing. If she looks at him, she'll actually notice he's flustered, mostly for what he says next. ] It isn't like I haven't thought about these things, I just didn't want any of it to be one sided. I just needed the time for my friend to get back to me as I wasn't sure where to go for... that kind of information.
[ she does glance at him for a split second before looking away again. this really is embarrassing, even for her, and it makes her laugh a bit. she hides it quickly though by covering her mouth with her hand, dropping the blanket on her lap in the process. she... didn't put any pants on ah. she got lazy. ]
Everything... [ she smiles then. ] I'd like that. If you'd have me.
[ She doesn't need pants-- wait. Though he does drop his head against her then, hiding it into her shoulder. His face feels so hot. ]
I'd-- [ He's too flustered... his throat feels dry and out of embarrassment he ends up laughing into her. God they're both idiots... ] I'd like that, too.
[ "Everything". That is. (incl. marriage tbh but she doesn't have to know that DGKGDSG) ]
[ she ends up laughing a bit too. but ah... well marriage has never crossed her mind until recently and now she's just even more in love with him because he's just so sweet. :( which is... ah... probably why he's getting a video at the end of the month. ]
[ Look ... it's a luxury few have back home because of the costs.
He ends up sucking in air at the way she asks that, I mean really the mood did get broken up a bit but now they're back to being comfortable with each other, more reassured that it was just miscommunication that was the error--
He licks his lips, tastes chocolate mint and gives her a smile in return. ]
Can I bring my ice cream? [ It's a joke!!!!!!!!!! mostly. maybe. ]
[ u///u Now stop pulling funny faces?! He makes sure the ice cream tub doesn't topple over and puts it on the table. After he twists a bit, his hand that isn't as cold reaching to cup her face.
Then he leans in for a kiss, kissing the corner of her mouth. ] I just. [ He hovers there for a moment, kissing the other corner of her mouth.
[ she bites her lip then before she opens her mouth slightly to breathe out. she's pretty sure that her cheeks are so warm right now from all the blood going up to her face. ]
Me too. [ wait. ] I mean-- not me, I want you-- [ jesus.
she puts most of her weight onto one hand as she presses it on the floor while she twists a bit so she can face him properly. her other hand goes up to his shoulder before she kisses him on the lips this time. ]
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