[ No, she can't but everything else she can... potentially. He doesn't know. There's too much of a difference to what he's used to so instead he just concentrates on what he does know.
With his eyes closed he can't see Widget, but he can feel her heartbeat when he presses his hands gently on either side of her neck.
He swallows before his head shifts a little, teeth pulling on her lip gently, almost like a question of whether it's okay, whether she believes that he's okay and that hopes that she is. ]
[ kissing isn't supposed to be the one that makes her feel better, but it does. it's definitely an answer that he's okay, and she thinks that he's doing this to make her feel better. she probably messed up again, but at least they aren't in an exploding conversation right now.
she returns the kiss once, and bites his lower lip softly. she's okay.
[ Well considering she'll be able to hear his heart pounding when she bites his lip in return. He doesn't moan or anything like that, but there is a soft noise in response. Gratitude, as well as a hint of pleasure.
His hands slide down slightly so his thumbs can brush her collarbones before they move over her shoulders, aiming to drag his palms along her arms instead.
He just kisses her again and again, switching between softer kisses, definitely more teasing, along with a few heavier ones where his lips track her upper or lower lip at a time.
[ see this is how athena dies of thirst through teasing kisses and no making out at all.
but athena does return each kiss more playfully than the last. she lets out some noises of pleasure every now and then, and her arms make way around his neck. honestly, she'd place her hands elsewhere, like rest his palm on his chest, but she'd rather not make him uncomfortable. ]
[ maybe she should be careful what she wishes for?!
Ironically, she might not realise it but it's the noises that make his skin burn and heart pound. It's also sad that she doesn't realise how quickly he can adapt, and the only reason he was embarrassed earlier about him accidentally touching her before is because he's wondered what it'd be like to do it properly.
It hasn't reached a terrible scale yet, no, but he's getting there.
It's when her arms move to wrap around his neck that one of his hands drops to her hip and grips on, but the other seems to only brush there lightly at first, fingertips hesitant as he tries to pull her closer with his other hand.
That's when his hand slides lower (eyes fluttering as he tries to concentrate on moving his mouth against hers so her lower lip is trapped between his and he actually sucks on the skin a little) to trail gently over her thigh. It's a reminder that she isn't wearing tights for once though when his palm drops to touch flesh instead and this time he does groan in the back of his throat. His fingers splay out before squeezing lightly, shaking a little because this is definitely a step up from what he'd normally do. ]
[ WELL MAYBE IF MERLIN ACTUALLY SAID SOMETHING, certain things wouldn't be so sad. smh!
that said, athena does jerk a bit at the contact. she's never been touched there before, and her instinct is to grab him and throw him because it's such a different way of contact-- but she reminds herself that it's merlin. eventually, he'd probably be touching not just her thigh but something else entirely.
but who knows. ]
Ah. [ though it's more of an "mmph" that she makes when she's pulled closer to him. she can't help it. a hand moves from his back to cup his cheek, fingers playfully running through the outline of his ear to tickle him. ]
He pauses to just breathe when she jerks a little, eyes opening just a slither to check her face, to make sure it isn't because he's gone too far but her reaction definitely helps calm those nerves. He has to remember that between the two of them, it's him who has more of a problem with this anyway--though that is slowly crumbling away to just leave him a mess.
When her fingers slide over his ear he doesn't jerk away this time, but it's sensitive. The moan that slips out of his mouth is telling that maybe it isn't just a ticklish spot and the fact that that hand on her thigh shifts to graze his nails over the skin might be telling that he's having a different reaction entirely, not to mention: ] Athena-- [ Her name comes out more of a prayer than anything, like he doesn't know what to do with himself because his pupils are probably dilated, eyes glazed over as she gets under his skin.
It takes willpower to briefly break the kiss, but it's only to slide his hand back up to her hip (potentially dragging her dress a little in the process, but at least that's an accident) to lift her a little. He holds her tighter with one arm, wrapping it around her, and reaches for the back of her knee with the other, trying to hint that she should move her leg.
[ why would she slap him for something like this? she wouldn't... because in all honesty, she hasn't even noticed because her mind is just preoccupied with merlin and his everything.
she moves her leg to get a bit more comfortable, whispering his name as she does. her other hand moves to cup his other cheek, and she just rests her forehead on his. ]
[ Look he's just getting used to the fact that this is okay... There aren't expectations of keeping your hands to yourself, to keeping things as tame as possible these days. He's breathing harder when she settles against him, mouth dry as his hands slide up and down against her sides to soothe himself as well as her.
His eyes close, a soft smile forming on his lips when she holds his face and whispers that. ]
I love you too. [ It's in the same tone as when his voice dipped before too though, low and a little croaky. ]
[ his hands are so warm... she loves that, too. it's really strange to be touched like this, but she's getting used to it at a fast pace, for some reason. probably because they keep meeting up at the rooftop like this. and they'll probably keep doing things like this so long as they're happy together.
she kisses his forehead and just rests her chin on his head for a while. this probably means that her chest is so close to his face.
gomen.
but she's trying to relax and catch her breath, too. ]
[ He makes a small noise when she shifts like that and okay jesus. He needs jesus apparently. His fingers curl into her dress, twisting the fabric a little as he grips onto her. His teeth slide over his tooth, digging into the skin and he closes his eyes tight.
He tries to keep his head deathly still, but uses his hands to try and calm himself by flattening them against her sides, dragging them down to her hips then drawing forward until they're both against her legs. His thumbs rub circles there. Given how close she is now though, she'll probably feel the quick puffs of air against her skin as he tries to breath normally and fails horribly. ]
Athena... [ He starts softly, heart feeling like it's lodged in his throat because honestly he's only admitting(?) it now because of how she seems to be okay with this but.
It takes him a moment to gather the courage too. Even then, it's really quite quiet. ] Can I touch you? [ Obviously he doesn't mean where he's already touching her but there we go-- Hope she didn't expect to catch her breath too quickly. ]
[ she slides downwards, making some distance between them just so her breasts don't end up flattening on his face when she leans down. with a question like that, she can't help but just stare at him. an answer isn't coming at all, mostly because her mind's gone places already. if he pays attention to widget, he's already shut off again, too.
she closes her eyes and a hand moves to hold merlin's. if he lets her, she'll lead that hand to where her heart is at first. it's beating wildly, as if it's about to pop out of her chest, but her grip on him is light. and there's even a pull downwards coming from her, too.
[ His own heart is hammering when she slides back down and he finally opens his eyes again. He has to blink a few times to look at her, but actually forces himself to not look away like he wants to. It's embarrassing that it's taken him this long to ask when it isn't the first time he's thought about it, but given their positioning before it was a little more difficult to... ignore.
He swallows when she takes his hand, having no problems with her leading him along. He watches quietly, his own eyes fluttering when he feels her heartbeat under his palm, mirroring his own which feels like it might explode.
It's the pull downwards that gives him the courage to slide his hand against her. At first the touch is light and hesitatant, following the curve of her breast rather than actually putting much pressure there. It's only when his fingers brush underneath that his eyes flicker back up to her face. His breathing speeds up as his wrist tilts a little until he actually cups her breast instead and gives it a small squeeze. ]
[ her mouth opens slightly to let out a breath, but it's not heavy, at least. she seems calm on the outside, though she's totally nervous and she has no idea what the hell to do now. is she supposed to ask if she could touch him back? for all her talk about the future and making out and all that, even she has no idea what to actually do at a time like this. . .
she lets out another breath at the squeeze, eyes still closed because really. just looking at him or where his hand is would just make things more awkward, and they're already progressing and going somewhere with this and she'd rather not ruin it. ]
[ His other hand moves to cup her cheek, thumb stroking over the skin as a point of focus for him as well. It is a little awkward, after all, given that he's just as nervous, worried that he'll mess up because this isn't anything he's prepared himself for either and it's only his imagination that has taken him this far. Slowly, he lets his hand move in a circular motion, breath hitching as this time he does actually add a little more pressure. When he ends up stopping this time there's a harder firmness to the squeeze, pushing his hand up into her as his fingers tighten.
And his mouth captures hers, his hand on her face sliding up into her hair as he takes her lower lip between his own and licks along the skin there.
And this is the point where his own body is reacting a lot more than he expected. He isn't really thinking about it, but hopefully his jeans will hide the fact that he's probably half hard by now, though maybe his heart won't be as easy to disguise when it picks up in speed and sounds like it's palpitating at times. ]
[ she tries to hold it in, but a moan comes out of her. but at least it isn't loud, and she even whispers his name before his lips manage to grab hers.
she's let go of his wrist by this point and it's her hands' turn to play around now, not that they would do anywhere sensitive. one squeezes his shoulder for balance as she leans forward into the kiss, and as such, applying even more pressure to the squeeze merlin gives her breast. the other hand moves to his other shoulder, a bit slower than the other.
her breathing's gotten heavier, that's for sure, but it's not a bad thing. she doesn't consider it a bad thing, anyway. especially with the way widget's lit up again - green this time, to show that she's... well, happy about this.
ah... ]
because it's the first time he's touching a girl :(
[ Like he can pay attention to Widget right now when his skin feels like it's on fire. His mouth feels like it's burning up too when she leans into the kiss and this time he actually tries to use his tongue in the kiss as well. The hand in her hair shifts, accidentally knocking off the hat and in turn messing up her hair. It's taking so much concentration to focus on two things at one already though that his hand is honestly just moving on instinct now.
His hand grips her hair, not enough to hurt but there's a definite slight pull there as he tries to keep her as close as possible. There are breaks in the kisses, but he's practically gasping and he ends up squirming slightly under her when the heat gets to be too much and he breaks the kiss properly. He probably looks like a hot mess honestly. ]
[ ah... athena isn't the least bit surprised when merlin starts using his tongue. this definitely isn't her first time making out with somebody (thanks, prom!) so she has a bit more experience in using her tongue back as the kiss gets deeper and steamier. she feels the pressure of his hand when the hat gets knocked off and his fingers in her hair, but that's okay. she can already tell she looks like a mess... it's fine.
when he finally breaks the kiss though, all she can say is ]
[ It's impossible to not groan when she actually returns it too, and it's just as much of a guide because he's going this blindly other than what the stupid video he saw before told him. Despite the information in that, he finds his mind is blank while trying to do this and he's losing himself into the heat of it. Logic is not easy when you have a lap full of Athena Cykes.
Once the kiss is broken though he can't even speak, he just breathes hard and looks like he's literally had his mind blown. He has really because when his hand finally slides down from her hair, both hands finally lowering to curl around her he just holds on and presses both of his lips together like he can't believe that just happened.
He leans into her this time, burying his face against her neck while he tries to calm the fuck down.
It's only then that he murmurs a soft: ] Yeah.
[ Why had he been so worried about this again?
Though he is now realising just how much of an effect this has had on him considering he's shaking a little but thankfully the beat of his heart is probably spiking out of control on the joy side of things. No worries there, Athena. ]
[ yeah... athena can't believe this happened either. but why she thinks so is probably a whole different story. she can't help but smile, so she bites her lower lip instead, giggling a bit. she's just so happy, and the emotions she's hearing from him is infectious, too.
she already said what she wanted to say, though. "wow". just that. what else is she supposed to say at a time like this? ]
[ Well he got out the "Can I touch you", maybe one day he'll admit to having scandalous thoughts at times. They'll probably only get worse now anyway. His breath slowly starts to even out, and eventually (after a few minutes) he pulls back enough to tug off his jacket.
The back of his neck especially feels like it's on fire and he probably should have yanked it off when they started. It isn't like he wastes any time before he's hugging her again though, resting his cheek against her shoulder as he peeks at her face.
It's kind of amazing that instead of her blacking out it ended up like this, isn't it?
Though no, okay. Once he's calm enough he lets his eyes shut, lets his hand move to rub her back slowly and murmurs: ] Remember when I said I thought about you before going to sleep?
[ this hug is nice. and it means more now—now that they've shared such an intimate moment together. he's so warm and he really does feel like home. maybe this is what love really is.
her hands move to the back of his neck again, locking him basically with her hands, fingers intertwined.
[ It's nice to be pulled in like this, where he can keep his eyes shut and try and will away the other feelings thrumming under his skin. To try and calm down to just sit and enjoy this. His eyes flutter when she shifts but he doesn't move more than he already has.
It's embarrassing, but considering what just happened, it's a lot easier to admit it. ] Sometimes it was thoughts about this. About what just happened. [ He clears his throat. ] Or it has recently, anyway.
[ He does peek up at her when she laughs, though he isn't taking offence by it. Really, by standards nowadays he's pretty... behind??? Most guys, with the sounds of it, would have thought of it pretty early on. Not that he hasn't appreciated how attractive she is, of course but... this is a whole new level.
This time it's his turn to let out a tiny laugh, letting it out with a puff of air to quieten it a bit. ]
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With his eyes closed he can't see Widget, but he can feel her heartbeat when he presses his hands gently on either side of her neck.
He swallows before his head shifts a little, teeth pulling on her lip gently, almost like a question of whether it's okay, whether she believes that he's okay and that hopes that she is. ]
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she returns the kiss once, and bites his lower lip softly. she's okay.
please be, too? ]
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His hands slide down slightly so his thumbs can brush her collarbones before they move over her shoulders, aiming to drag his palms along her arms instead.
He just kisses her again and again, switching between softer kisses, definitely more teasing, along with a few heavier ones where his lips track her upper or lower lip at a time.
He's definitely okay. Yeah. ]
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but athena does return each kiss more playfully than the last. she lets out some noises of pleasure every now and then, and her arms make way around his neck. honestly, she'd place her hands elsewhere, like rest his palm on his chest, but she'd rather not make him uncomfortable. ]
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Ironically, she might not realise it but it's the noises that make his skin burn and heart pound. It's also sad that she doesn't realise how quickly he can adapt, and the only reason he was embarrassed earlier about him accidentally touching her before is because he's wondered what it'd be like to do it properly.
It hasn't reached a terrible scale yet, no, but he's getting there.
It's when her arms move to wrap around his neck that one of his hands drops to her hip and grips on, but the other seems to only brush there lightly at first, fingertips hesitant as he tries to pull her closer with his other hand.
That's when his hand slides lower (eyes fluttering as he tries to concentrate on moving his mouth against hers so her lower lip is trapped between his and he actually sucks on the skin a little) to trail gently over her thigh. It's a reminder that she isn't wearing tights for once though when his palm drops to touch flesh instead and this time he does groan in the back of his throat. His fingers splay out before squeezing lightly, shaking a little because this is definitely a step up from what he'd normally do. ]
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that said, athena does jerk a bit at the contact. she's never been touched there before, and her instinct is to grab him and throw him because it's such a different way of contact-- but she reminds herself that it's merlin. eventually, he'd probably be touching not just her thigh but something else entirely.
but who knows. ]
Ah. [ though it's more of an "mmph" that she makes when she's pulled closer to him. she can't help it. a hand moves from his back to cup his cheek, fingers playfully running through the outline of his ear to tickle him. ]
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He pauses to just breathe when she jerks a little, eyes opening just a slither to check her face, to make sure it isn't because he's gone too far but her reaction definitely helps calm those nerves. He has to remember that between the two of them, it's him who has more of a problem with this anyway--though that is slowly crumbling away to just leave him a mess.
When her fingers slide over his ear he doesn't jerk away this time, but it's sensitive. The moan that slips out of his mouth is telling that maybe it isn't just a ticklish spot and the fact that that hand on her thigh shifts to graze his nails over the skin might be telling that he's having a different reaction entirely, not to mention: ] Athena-- [ Her name comes out more of a prayer than anything, like he doesn't know what to do with himself because his pupils are probably dilated, eyes glazed over as she gets under his skin.
It takes willpower to briefly break the kiss, but it's only to slide his hand back up to her hip (potentially dragging her dress a little in the process, but at least that's an accident) to lift her a little. He holds her tighter with one arm, wrapping it around her, and reaches for the back of her knee with the other, trying to hint that she should move her leg.
Hopefully she doesn't just slap him tbh. ]
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she moves her leg to get a bit more comfortable, whispering his name as she does. her other hand moves to cup his other cheek, and she just rests her forehead on his. ]
I love you.
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His eyes close, a soft smile forming on his lips when she holds his face and whispers that. ]
I love you too. [ It's in the same tone as when his voice dipped before too though, low and a little croaky. ]
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she kisses his forehead and just rests her chin on his head for a while. this probably means that her chest is so close to his face.
gomen.
but she's trying to relax and catch her breath, too. ]
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He tries to keep his head deathly still, but uses his hands to try and calm himself by flattening them against her sides, dragging them down to her hips then drawing forward until they're both against her legs. His thumbs rub circles there. Given how close she is now though, she'll probably feel the quick puffs of air against her skin as he tries to breath normally and fails horribly. ]
Athena... [ He starts softly, heart feeling like it's lodged in his throat because honestly he's only admitting(?) it now because of how she seems to be okay with this but.
It takes him a moment to gather the courage too. Even then, it's really quite quiet. ] Can I touch you? [ Obviously he doesn't mean where he's already touching her but there we go-- Hope she didn't expect to catch her breath too quickly. ]
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she closes her eyes and a hand moves to hold merlin's. if he lets her, she'll lead that hand to where her heart is at first. it's beating wildly, as if it's about to pop out of her chest, but her grip on him is light. and there's even a pull downwards coming from her, too.
that should be enough of a yes, right? ]
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He swallows when she takes his hand, having no problems with her leading him along. He watches quietly, his own eyes fluttering when he feels her heartbeat under his palm, mirroring his own which feels like it might explode.
It's the pull downwards that gives him the courage to slide his hand against her. At first the touch is light and hesitatant, following the curve of her breast rather than actually putting much pressure there. It's only when his fingers brush underneath that his eyes flicker back up to her face. His breathing speeds up as his wrist tilts a little until he actually cups her breast instead and gives it a small squeeze. ]
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she lets out another breath at the squeeze, eyes still closed because really. just looking at him or where his hand is would just make things more awkward, and they're already progressing and going somewhere with this and she'd rather not ruin it. ]
sweats
And his mouth captures hers, his hand on her face sliding up into her hair as he takes her lower lip between his own and licks along the skin there.
And this is the point where his own body is reacting a lot more than he expected. He isn't really thinking about it, but hopefully his jeans will hide the fact that he's probably half hard by now, though maybe his heart won't be as easy to disguise when it picks up in speed and sounds like it's palpitating at times. ]
god why
she's let go of his wrist by this point and it's her hands' turn to play around now, not that they would do anywhere sensitive. one squeezes his shoulder for balance as she leans forward into the kiss, and as such, applying even more pressure to the squeeze merlin gives her breast. the other hand moves to his other shoulder, a bit slower than the other.
her breathing's gotten heavier, that's for sure, but it's not a bad thing. she doesn't consider it a bad thing, anyway. especially with the way widget's lit up again - green this time, to show that she's... well, happy about this.
ah... ]
because it's the first time he's touching a girl :(
His hand grips her hair, not enough to hurt but there's a definite slight pull there as he tries to keep her as close as possible. There are breaks in the kisses, but he's practically gasping and he ends up squirming slightly under her when the heat gets to be too much and he breaks the kiss properly. He probably looks like a hot mess honestly. ]
sweats with you
when he finally breaks the kiss though, all she can say is ]
Wow.
[ feels like deja vu. ]
sweats further... just give him a moment now ok
Once the kiss is broken though he can't even speak, he just breathes hard and looks like he's literally had his mind blown. He has really because when his hand finally slides down from her hair, both hands finally lowering to curl around her he just holds on and presses both of his lips together like he can't believe that just happened.
He leans into her this time, burying his face against her neck while he tries to calm the fuck down.
It's only then that he murmurs a soft: ] Yeah.
[ Why had he been so worried about this again?
Though he is now realising just how much of an effect this has had on him considering he's shaking a little but thankfully the beat of his heart is probably spiking out of control on the joy side of things. No worries there, Athena. ]
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she already said what she wanted to say, though. "wow". just that. what else is she supposed to say at a time like this? ]
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The back of his neck especially feels like it's on fire and he probably should have yanked it off when they started. It isn't like he wastes any time before he's hugging her again though, resting his cheek against her shoulder as he peeks at her face.
It's kind of amazing that instead of her blacking out it ended up like this, isn't it?
Though no, okay. Once he's calm enough he lets his eyes shut, lets his hand move to rub her back slowly and murmurs: ] Remember when I said I thought about you before going to sleep?
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her hands move to the back of his neck again, locking him basically with her hands, fingers intertwined.
she rests her head on his before she answers. ]
Yeah? What about it?
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It's embarrassing, but considering what just happened, it's a lot easier to admit it. ] Sometimes it was thoughts about this. About what just happened. [ He clears his throat. ] Or it has recently, anyway.
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Can I tell you a secret?
[ nah, she doesn't end up waiting for him to answer. ]
I think about these things, too. I mean— Not before bed or anything, but... I've definitely had thoughts. [ a pause. ] Of us.
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This time it's his turn to let out a tiny laugh, letting it out with a puff of air to quieten it a bit. ]
You're making it impossible not to.
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