psycholawgy | post of shame

[ It's also a lot less awkward compared to last time. He's... a little more confident when it comes to this stuff now, knowing that he can put his trust in her, that she won't judge him too much for being so dumbfounded about this side of things. His hand slides up to follow the curve, grazing up to her collarbone before his hand flattens over her heart.

He listens, feels her heartbeat with lidded eyes for a moment before he leans to kiss her again, almost like he can't get enough of her (he can't) and that is when his hand slides down until it can gently cup her through her dress and bra. The material is thicker than it had been with her shirt but... it's still really soft /// ]

[ he's not the only one who can't get enough of the other, so she's grateful when he leans in and kisses her again. honestly, if time could just stop for a while, she'd give him all the love she possibly could through theses kisses she returns, through the way she pulls him closer, through the way she tries to rid him of his tie (it's hard).

if he's too close, though, he might probably feel widget around her neck and bump into him, but ah... ]

[ Oops, sorry Widget. Hopefully it's the only time it happens, though the kiss does deepen momentarily as he licks her lips and traces her teeth a little. He pulls back when he feels her struggling with the tie though, breathing unsteadily as he gives her the space to wiggle it loose and off.

As soon as it is off though, he's leaning in for another kiss, squeezing her breast and rolling it against his palm. He even groans into her mouth, enjoying the way she responds, the way she feels and reacts. It's already too late for him as he just gets lost in her. ]

[ she's never told anybody but when he had touched her the first time, it was definitely an unforgettable experience. one that she thinks about sometimes before going to bed. what would it feel like if he did it again and all that, and she's definitely getting her answer right now.

it feels good, to be honest, being touched like this by the one you love. she tries to mouth his name softly in between kisses but even her breathing's gotten way too fast and heavy for her to make any sense over the things she says. ]

[ She might not be able to get the words out, but the way she's breathing tells him that it's a good thing. That she's enjoying this, too. He pries his mouth away from hers to kiss along her ear and neck instead, giving her the space to breathe while his hand plays with her. He even peeks down to watch as he applies a little more pressure with his hand, biting his lip at the way she feels.

Then he sinks a little lower, lips on her throat, pressing against the skin just above her dress then kisses her other breast over her clothing. His elbow has to press down on the bed to ensure his weight doesn't flop onto her when he lets his other hand move over her too. ]

[ when he applies a little more pressure, she can't help but say his name out loud now, but not too loudly, ofc. smh... just enough for him to hear, and him alone.

she isn't sure where this is headed now, but she just can't help it. she just wants more of him. knowing him, though, he probably has a different idea. she'll just let him lead for now. ]

[ Really, he has no idea of where this is headed, he just wants to see what makes her feel good. To kiss her. Hold her. There's an odd sense of wanting to be possessive too, to keep her close and never let go but he bites that down easily enough.

He swallows hard as he looks up at her, listening to how she says his name. It isn't loud, but it means a lot to hear it. He tries it again, this time with both of his hands. ]

[ ah... there it is again, thatkind of pressure. his hands are so warm too, and she's starting to wonder what it would feel like if she wasn't wearing any clothes... her mind is already going places, please help her. . . ]

Merlin, I— [ love you, but she doesn't even let herself finish, pulling him by the collar to kiss him hard and deep, wanting more of him. hopefully he feels the same way and it isn't just her craving for him right now. ]

Edited 2016-05-19 15:50 (UTC)

[ There it is indeed. He's gasping when she can't even finish her sentence, instead tugging him down so he crashes against her. One hand makes a grab for the bed while the other seems to only push harder against her breast. The fact that he falls into her is both fortunate and unfortunate though as his hips align with hers and she'll know all too well that she isn't the only one craving here.

He'd been trying to not make it too obvious, but he ends up moaning into her mouth as she kisses him hard and deep, kissing back with as much fervour and passion. His fingers dig into the bed as he tries to keep himself still, sweat running along his collar because he isn't sure if she'll be okay with this. If he's okay with this. The next time their lips part he whispers against her mouth: ] Is this-- [ He swallows in air. ] --okay? Are you...? [ Please be okay with this.... is all he can think when his entire body seems like it's on fire as it is. ]

[ she feels that poke again, a bit more this time because of the material of his pants are much softer compared to denim. and while what originally would strike her is fear for her life or something else, it isn't even what she feels... it's so hot. this is hot. and somehow, this is-- ]

Okay. [ she whispers back, opening her eyes to get a better look at him now. ] I'm- fine... are you-- [ because the last time she did notice him hard, he was acting all weird (who wouldn't) and everything was awkward. . . hopefully she hasn't ruined things by pulling him closer to her. ]

[ It's difficult to keep breathing as he waits for her to reply, but when she says "okay" and not anything negative he relaxes against her. It's like permission in a way, her agreeing that he hasn't gone too far. Hasn't pushed more than he should. His eyes are probably glazed over by now, mouth swollen from how much they've been kissing yet he still wants more.

His hand reaches up to touch her lips, his own parting in the process. ] Can... [ His eyes flutter and he feels like his body is throbbing from head to toe. He doesn't look away, but he does lick his lips as the hand that's on her face skims down, dragging over her dress. His heart is probably erratic at this point when his fingers eventually find the bottom of her dress, clutching at the fabric over her thigh. ] Can I...?

[ what is he asking permission for this time? athena can't even begin to guess when her mind's so busy thinking of how all of this is right now. she can't handle it. but she's reached the point where she'd say yes to every request merlin asks of her, including whatever this is, so she nods slowly, eyes focused up at him. ]

Y- Yeah... [ whatever this is, wherever this will go, it should be fine, right? she's with him, and that's really all that matters. ] I-

[ she swallows. this is taking more courage than she expected and her cheeks flush even redder now that she's thinking about what she even wants to say.

can i touch you too? ]

[ He exhales slowly, not quite sure if she understands either but this is fine. He bites the corner of his lip when she looks up at him, skin flushed and gorgeous. She's stunning.

It's then that he pins her leg to his side and rolls them over so he's on his back and she's on top of him instead. He wiggles a bit to kick his shoes off, before he pushes himself to sit up. ] You?

[ But then his hands are moving to the bottom of her dress, swallowing as he slowly--so so slowly--starts to pull it up with the intent of taking it off. Ah. ]

[ merlin that is not how you take off clothes... ah... but at least athena gets it now, which makes her heart race all the more. this is a lot???? better than what she was thinking, but let's not go there.

she rests her head on his shoulder, laughing a bit. he'll likely be able to feel the puffs of air that exit her mouth. and then she whispers: ] That's not how you do it, [ all said playfully, as if she's amused by this.

slowly, she takes both his hands with her own, leading them to her back where he'd be able to feel a zipper. ]

Edited 2016-05-20 09:16 (UTC)

[ Look it isn't as though he knows all that well how to remove a lady's clothing. He flushes hotly when she laughs and just lets her pull his hands to her back. ] Sorry. [ He skims his hands along her back until he gets to the top and slowly starts to tug gently at the zip. He's biting his lip when the material starts to top, only stopping when it reaches the bottom. ] Now?

[ Now can he pull it up or does it go down oh my god ]

[ IT CAN GO EITHER WAY NOW MERLIN WHICH DIRECTION DO YOU WANT TO GO... ]

Now, [ said with another lght laugh, and she tugs on his ear a little with her teeth before pulling away and he can see the mess he's made. her face is so red and she's so embarrassed by all this, but she's smiling anyway. and now that she's in this position he can easily pull her dress up and off... ah. . . ]

[ HE DOESN'T CARE AS LONG AS IT'S OFF...

Though god... she might be red but she's red and smiling despite this being horribly embarrassing. It doesn't feel as awkward as last time on the rooftop though, but maybe that was also because Merlin was dealing with guilt, shame and a number of other things.

He feels freer now.

And also as though he's going to explode if she does that to his ear again jfc-- A moan slips out before he can stop himself, and he squirms a little (which in turn only seems to make him more embarrassed as well) but then he's pulling her dress up and off. He keeps his eyes on her face as it goes up, dropping it on the floor with his jacket, and then finally looks at her. ]

Oh. [ It's all he can say, and it sounds more like a prayer than anything else. It isn't like earlier with the swim suit somehow because... this is just them and not people walking by. They aren't hidden by water and they're on his bed.

His breath shakes as his hands slowly flatten against her sides, move up until they can curve in to touch the edge of her bra. ]

[ somehow she thought this would be okay but this is on an absolutely different level holy shit. this is so embarrassing... and once he's gotten her dress off, she feels that. a hand goes up to cover her mouth as she just kind of gawks there for a few seconds, in complete disbelief of the current events transpiring. ]

Don't-- [ Don't look because she's just in her underwear now--plain white and her panties may be kind of lacy too--but it's a bit too late to say anything now when his hand is touching her and all she can do is dig her face into his chest. ]

Edited 2016-05-20 22:32 (UTC)

[ That is only more precious honestly. He can't stop biting his lip when he looks at her and his fingers had been about to slide up to follow the top of the cup of her bra when she shifts to dig her face into his chest. He worries that he's pushed her too far though, even if she had been smiling and laughing before and instantly his hands drop away to the bed, gripping on there instead. ]

Too much?

No, I-- [ she just shakes her head as she tries to find the words. it's easier this time though, compared to her wanting to ask if she can touch him. ] I'm-- just embarrassed. I didn't want you to look.

[ and it's still embarrassing up to now, but it feels slightly better when her head is on him and she can't see what's going on. ]

Edited 2016-05-20 22:59 (UTC)

[ He swallows at that, curls his arms around her to hug her tight. ] But-- [ She's so warm... her skin feels hot to the touch as his hands skim up and down her back. ] You don't have anything to be embarrassed about. I've never seen anyone so beautiful in my life.

[ He rubs his cheek against her head, trying to get her to feel more comfortable. ]

But we can stop if that's what you want. Whenever you want. [ Because if anything, he respects her, loves her too much to cross a line he shouldn't. ]

[ her hand falls on his chest and grips it tightly before she can look up at him. it's even more embarrassing now that he's said something like that and she wants to hit him but at the same time, she just wants to show him some love and kiss him again.

she swallows. ] Don't say that... [ it comes out more as laughter, because lbr that's the easiest way to hide her embarrassment. ] But-- we... [ this talk is helping her feel more comfortable though. it's helping. ] It's fine. I'm fine.

Edited 2016-05-20 23:24 (UTC)

[ He kisses over her face though, peppers it with kisses when she looks up at him again. His eyes do flutter when she laughs, trying to hide her embarrassment. She's still stumbling over her words a little though so it's obviously still there. ]

I don't want you to just say that, okay? [ Now his forehead presses against hers, his hands moving up over her arms to cup her cheeks. ] I don't want to hurt you ever again.

No, [ she pouts now as she shakes her head, a bit vigorously this time that some of her hair ends up on her face when she stops. ] I mean it. It's fine.

[ she leans in to kiss him. it's slow and it lingers for a bit. she really does mean it though. they haven't gone too far. not for her, anyway. ]

[ No? Well. At least her actions prove it, because the kiss is slow enough that he can melt a little into her, his eyes fluttering closed at the motion. He doesn't push to heat it up again yet, instead lets his hands drop to her arms. He slides them down until they rest on her hands. He smooths his hands over her skin there, then slowly pulls her hands up to his collar. ]

Will this help?

[ You know... so she's not the only one uncovered. ]

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