[ He reaches out with the arm actually furthest from her, not shifting from laying on his back. His hand covers the back of hers, pulling it gently to rest it against his chest. He presses her palm flat, holds it down so she can't pull it away. ]
I forgave you already, I just didn't understand it. Sorry. Too. I mean. [ He takes a deep breath and she'll feel his chest rise with the motion before he shifts to try and get comfortable. It's harder when the physical contact is there, it's harder when he can feel his heart speeding up because of it. ]
You already took my heart, you can't change that now. I just want... [ His eyes shut slowly, fluttering against his cheeks. ] I just want you to see that. I'll always forgive you, stop panicking about it. So now it's my turn to apologise for being so insufferable when it comes to getting used to this. I know I'm the one out of sorts with how society is now. But you know. I shouldn't have to let go of what I'm used to either, not entirely.
[ Then quietly: ]
I shall make a new song before the wind blows and it freezes and rains. My lady is trying and testing me, to find out how much I love her. Well, no matter what quarrel she makes, she will not loose me from her bond. Rather I become her servant, surrender to her, so she can write my name in her contract. Now don't go thinking I must be drunk if I love my good lady; for without her I cannot live...
[ she closes her eyes again as she listens to his heart, as she feels it pump. it's different now, the tune is definitely, and a hundred-percent different, but it's still the same heart. it's still the one she considers her favourite to listen to, no matter how painful it can be to hear it at times. ]
Merlin, I-- [ no. no. no.
she takes her hand back and gets up and rushes to the ledges of the rooftop before he can chase after her. there aren't any fences or anything that would protect her from falling, but she takes a step on the ledge anyway. and screams: ]
Merlin! [ I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR LAST NAME IS BUT-- ] I really, really love you!
[ It's so quiet for a moment as he finishes that off, feels the warmth from her palm through the thin material of his shirt but then she's pulling her hand away and he thinks he's said too much. Too much too soon.
It's a lot more alarming when she goes to the edge of the roof and even with the revival process here his heart is stuck in his throat and he can't move quick enough ]
Athena wait-- [ Did he seriously just think she was planning on jumping? Yes, yes he sure did. When he actually sees her stop at the edge, yelling that out though he's flustered to the point where his hand covers his face. His skin feels hot, is probably flushed.
What... an idiot. Is that really something she should be screaming from a rooftop????
He's half up from the surprise earlier, and while his legs feel a bit wobbly, stomach all fluttery he reaches out to wrap his arms around her waist, picking her up to pull her back and away from danger.
[ She's so tiny so he can pick her up... it isn't the case for most people. Thankfully she's down on the ground soon enough, but it isn't as if he's covering her mouth.
She can keep going if she really wants. ]
You were too close to the edge, it made me uneasy. [ It's muffled because he isn't pulling his face away yet. ]
I wasn't going to fall. [ jeez, but look at that heart speeding up. he really was uneasy. she can't help but laugh at everything that's happening right now. ]
But... I love you. Probably from the moment we met. [ she laughs again, and pulls merlin's hands away from her waist and to her chest where he can feel her heart. ] I'd fight anybody who says anything bad against you, and if I ever make you unhappy again, then I'll make sure I disappear, too.
I'm going to work hard, Merlin. Work so hard so that I don't make you feel pain ever again. It's not because I can feel it too, but for you to get hurt because of how stupid—of how competitive I can be... I'm sorry. That's not what love is supposed to be.
It doesn't matter. [ He almost wants to sulk that she isn't being more careful about it, but it's fine. Though ah... He thought he was being overly open about how he felt, she's actually saying it properly. It might have taken some time to reach this point this evening, but with her heartbeat under his fingertips he feels like he's melting now. Like she finally gets it. ]
I love you.
[ It's still slightly muffled even if he tried to move his head a little, but this is making his heart jump, it's a little difficult to think about what he's doing. His hand curls up against her before he moves it up, reaching for her shoulder to turn her around.
As soon as she's facing him, he's kissing her. Both of them are a mess from earlier, but it's fine. It's real. This is real. The kiss he gives her is 100% full of love, full of emotion and passion as both of his hands move to hold her face. ]
[ she was taken by so much surprise that night at the rooftop almost three weeks ago. now there's this. it's almost the same, but worlds apart from how different it is. it's amazing how you can love somebody after only knowing them for about a month or so. but that's how the heart works. and you should always follow your heart.
at least, that's what athena believes.
her hands of course, aren't just on her sides. they move to grab him by the collar and pull him closer, even though he's already as close as he can be. closer to feel this moment. athena's never wavered with what and how she feels for him. each kiss was real, and if things could get realer this kiss would be it. ]
[ It's easier to fall than it is to get back up, that's the same with anything else. All he knows is that right now neither of them are leaving and they're finally coming to terms with everything. He believes in destiny. He believes in branches of destiny that can change depending on the path you take and he firmly believes she's his path now.
His hands delve up into her hair, head tilting to deepen the kiss as he tries to pull her back to where they were before. His legs feel like jelly and he'd really prefer to sit down right now.
He just doesn't want to break the kiss now they're there, and instead hopes that she understands what he means by the light pull he gives her. ]
[ merlin doesn't have to worry about the kiss breaking, because even if athena would want to pull away to breathe, there's no part of her that wants to do it. if this is the closest she can be to him, she'll take the chance wholeheartedly and never let go. which is to say, they are thinking of the same thing and she takes a few steps forward just so they're back to where the blankets are.
her hands now move to his neck, wrapping them around it as she tip toes further just so she can help further the kiss. it's hard when you're a tiny. ]
[ His hands immediately drop to her waist, gliding down to her hips as though he's forgotten the promise he made to himself earlier. He feels hot, like where her hands press burn into his skin especially when she leans up, trying so hard to keep as close as she can. His hand grips at her dress, twisting fabric slightly while his other hand flails back to try and find the ground.
His teeth shift to pull on her lower lip, lips catching it after, sucking on her lip just for a brief second before he finally lets himself tumble down. His legs feel too weak to keep standing and he's panting already once he's down, looking up at her instead.
His hand reaches for hers, entwines their fingers. ]
Stay with me here, tonight?
[ ...why does it sound worse than it should-- but w/e. ]
[ that doesn't even sound bad smh!! but athena does take a seat next to him, legs stretched out in front of her. she has no idea what to say now after that sudden outburst, but of course she'd stay with him. at this moment in time, she'd follow him anywhere and everywhere so long as he says the word.
she grins before responding, squeezing his hand softly. ] Like last time?
[ Maybe my head was in the gutter... who knows. When she sits down though he twists a little until he can face her. ]
Like last time.
[ He gives her a wide grin. ] Mostly, anyway. [ After saying that his free hand that isn't holding hers still moves to tickle her side. Really he's just relieved she's smiling again now. That they got past this. ]
[ It's a little unfair really, considering her dress is actually denim (he definitely didn't think this through) and his is thin cotton. He jerks a little, arm trying to clamp down over where her hand just moved.
He ends up biting his lip to stop the laugh that wants to bubble up too. ]
[ you really didn't think this through, did you, merlin? with your legs like jelly, you can barely move much. athena even takes her other hand away from his just to tickle both sides.
[ His hand yanks on her dress when her other hand pulls away from his, both of her hands tickling him now. He definitely goes down without much of a fight, twisting towards the pillow. He can't hold the laughter back now anyway, even if he ends up sliding over the floor trying to take her wrists and get her to stop.
[ at some point during this tickling session, she decides that it's enough and just flops on top of him, both her hands on his shoulders so he doesn't have to bear too much of her weight on him. ]
[ He's still trying to get his breath back when she flops on top of him, ends up flopped out rather weakly himself. His head tips towards hers, though it's obvious he's still remembering how to breathe at first. ]
[ Hopefully it never does come back, considering his arms finally move to curl over her back, pulling her down so she doesn't really have to worry about putting her weight on him. He doesn't care.
Speaking of what feels good to say, his eyes flutter closed and he mumbles softly again: ] I love you.
[ Ah... it feels so calming, too, and he wonders (very very briefly) if this is why and how they ended up so wound up like a tornado. ]
[ Is it possible to melt even more into the ground? Possibly. His eyes do peek open when she asks the question though, and his hands shift so one rests at the bottom of her back, the other starting to trace out the words to the poem on her back. ]
[ It's much better like this, he decides, and while it's embarrassing that he told her poetry to try and make her understand... he isn't willing to let this feeling go by being stubborn. ]
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I forgave you already, I just didn't understand it. Sorry. Too. I mean. [ He takes a deep breath and she'll feel his chest rise with the motion before he shifts to try and get comfortable. It's harder when the physical contact is there, it's harder when he can feel his heart speeding up because of it. ]
You already took my heart, you can't change that now. I just want... [ His eyes shut slowly, fluttering against his cheeks. ] I just want you to see that. I'll always forgive you, stop panicking about it. So now it's my turn to apologise for being so insufferable when it comes to getting used to this. I know I'm the one out of sorts with how society is now. But you know. I shouldn't have to let go of what I'm used to either, not entirely.
[ Then quietly: ]
I shall make a new song
before the wind blows and it freezes and rains.
My lady is trying and testing me,
to find out how much I love her.
Well, no matter what quarrel she makes,
she will not loose me from her bond.
Rather I become her servant, surrender to her,
so she can write my name in her contract.
Now don't go thinking I must be drunk
if I love my good lady;
for without her I cannot live...
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Merlin, I-- [ no. no. no.
she takes her hand back and gets up and rushes to the ledges of the rooftop before he can chase after her. there aren't any fences or anything that would protect her from falling, but she takes a step on the ledge anyway. and screams: ]
Merlin! [ I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR LAST NAME IS BUT-- ] I really, really love you!
[ HELP HER GOOD LORD. ]
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It's a lot more alarming when she goes to the edge of the roof and even with the revival process here his heart is stuck in his throat and he can't move quick enough ]
Athena wait-- [ Did he seriously just think she was planning on jumping? Yes, yes he sure did. When he actually sees her stop at the edge, yelling that out though he's flustered to the point where his hand covers his face. His skin feels hot, is probably flushed.
What... an idiot. Is that really something she should be screaming from a rooftop????
He's half up from the surprise earlier, and while his legs feel a bit wobbly, stomach all fluttery he reaches out to wrap his arms around her waist, picking her up to pull her back and away from danger.
He ends up just burying his face in her hair. ]
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[ LET IT BE KNOWN THAT HER FRIENDSHIP- or in this case, romantic speeches-AREN'T ONLY A SENTENCE LONG. ]
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She can keep going if she really wants. ]
You were too close to the edge, it made me uneasy. [ It's muffled because he isn't pulling his face away yet. ]
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But... I love you. Probably from the moment we met. [ she laughs again, and pulls merlin's hands away from her waist and to her chest where he can feel her heart. ] I'd fight anybody who says anything bad against you, and if I ever make you unhappy again, then I'll make sure I disappear, too.
I'm going to work hard, Merlin. Work so hard so that I don't make you feel pain ever again. It's not because I can feel it too, but for you to get hurt because of how stupid—of how competitive I can be... I'm sorry. That's not what love is supposed to be.
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I love you.
[ It's still slightly muffled even if he tried to move his head a little, but this is making his heart jump, it's a little difficult to think about what he's doing. His hand curls up against her before he moves it up, reaching for her shoulder to turn her around.
As soon as she's facing him, he's kissing her. Both of them are a mess from earlier, but it's fine. It's real. This is real. The kiss he gives her is 100% full of love, full of emotion and passion as both of his hands move to hold her face. ]
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at least, that's what athena believes.
her hands of course, aren't just on her sides. they move to grab him by the collar and pull him closer, even though he's already as close as he can be. closer to feel this moment. athena's never wavered with what and how she feels for him. each kiss was real, and if things could get realer this kiss would be it. ]
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His hands delve up into her hair, head tilting to deepen the kiss as he tries to pull her back to where they were before. His legs feel like jelly and he'd really prefer to sit down right now.
He just doesn't want to break the kiss now they're there, and instead hopes that she understands what he means by the light pull he gives her. ]
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her hands now move to his neck, wrapping them around it as she tip toes further just so she can help further the kiss. it's hard when you're a tiny. ]
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His teeth shift to pull on her lower lip, lips catching it after, sucking on her lip just for a brief second before he finally lets himself tumble down. His legs feel too weak to keep standing and he's panting already once he's down, looking up at her instead.
His hand reaches for hers, entwines their fingers. ]
Stay with me here, tonight?
[ ...why does it sound worse than it should-- but w/e. ]
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she grins before responding, squeezing his hand softly. ] Like last time?
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Like last time.
[ He gives her a wide grin. ] Mostly, anyway. [ After saying that his free hand that isn't holding hers still moves to tickle her side. Really he's just relieved she's smiling again now. That they got past this. ]
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Really? [ that's all she says at first before going silent. and then she retaliates by tickling his side, too. ]
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He ends up biting his lip to stop the laugh that wants to bubble up too. ]
Not really, no-- [ Too late... ]
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you're going down. ]
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He just?! wanted?! to lighten the mood?! ]
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Hey.
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Hey.
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just like that other night on the rooftop. and it's like whatever happened earlier just went away. she hopes it never comes back, too. ]
It felt so good to say.
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Speaking of what feels good to say, his eyes flutter closed and he mumbles softly again: ] I love you.
[ Ah... it feels so calming, too, and he wonders (very very briefly) if this is why and how they ended up so wound up like a tornado. ]
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[ and then a thought hits her. it's not a bad idea or anything, but it might be questionable in meriln's opinion. ]
What you said earlier... can you write it down later on for me?
[ so she can keep it in her box. ]
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The poem?
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Yes, that! I want to put it in my special box.
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I can. Later. I'll find special paper for it too.
[ Hopefully no one ever finds that box... ]
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