[ she feels bad for no reason in particular - it's as if she's done something wrong to him and she doesn't know what, so when he does take her hand, she doesn't look at him and continues looking at her side. ]
I don't know who Rapunzel is, [ she murmurs, though she kind of remembers the name from lee's hot or not network post. ]
You don't? [ With how things have gone here he doesn't expect that. Given how everyone he's talked to seems to know Athena... He. Doesn't know how to explain who Rapunzel is either. ]
I... arrived at the same time as her. [ And they're actually pretty close, but he doesn't know how much he should say about that when Athena won't even look at him. ]
...Hey. [ His hand reaches to her chin, trying to get her to tilt her head towards him again. He's learning though, because it's probably the third time he's seen this reaction now. ] You haven't done anything wrong.
I've seen her posts, but that's it-- [ we aren't friends: she would have continued with that but now she's facing merlin and she doesn't know what to think.
she really doesn't want to mess things up anymore. she's done it at least twice already, and it always hurts. it hurts her, it hurts him, and she just feels like a total wreck when she thinks about it. ]
[ It's partly why he lets that topic drop though, before she worries about anything to do with that because in all fairness, he doesn't want her to think he's trying to make her jealous or anything like that either.
Instead, he lifts the hand that's holding hers and tugs gently. ]
[ As soon as she's close enough his hand lets go of hers to wrap around her waist instead, pulling her as close as he can. It probably means she half falls on his lap, but that's fine when he wants to hug her tight. ]
Sorry, I just got some... bad thoughts in my head.
[ "Bad thoughts" he says, but he's too busy burying his face against her neck and holding her to look for her reaction to that. ]
[ is he trying to be sweet when he tilts his head or what-- athena just winces at all of this. ]
And?
[ oh, right. dude from the past. this is too much for him. athena can't even do anything but forgive him for it because it's not like he could help himself, so-- ]
It's fine. Don't think about it. It's not like you knew, either.
[ No......... he's just shy. What the hell Athena stop being so judgemental? ]
That isn't what I mean--
[ Athena please... don't make him say it.
He does at least look back at her, hands shifting to rest against her sides to try and stop her from being wonky here, keeping her upright as he leans in to kiss her jaw. Hopefully this time she won't say anything that confuses him before he makes it to her mouth to kiss her properly. It isn't teasing like before, but hopefully she'll stop being a dummy about how he feels. ]
[ no, he needs to say it because she doesn't get it beyond... that. just forget about it, merlin, she thinks. it's not like she can get mad at him for it, as already mentioned.
kissing her does shut her up, though, and she says nothing, though her heartbeat and widget looking so happy probably says it all already.]
[ No, she can't but everything else she can... potentially. He doesn't know. There's too much of a difference to what he's used to so instead he just concentrates on what he does know.
With his eyes closed he can't see Widget, but he can feel her heartbeat when he presses his hands gently on either side of her neck.
He swallows before his head shifts a little, teeth pulling on her lip gently, almost like a question of whether it's okay, whether she believes that he's okay and that hopes that she is. ]
[ kissing isn't supposed to be the one that makes her feel better, but it does. it's definitely an answer that he's okay, and she thinks that he's doing this to make her feel better. she probably messed up again, but at least they aren't in an exploding conversation right now.
she returns the kiss once, and bites his lower lip softly. she's okay.
[ Well considering she'll be able to hear his heart pounding when she bites his lip in return. He doesn't moan or anything like that, but there is a soft noise in response. Gratitude, as well as a hint of pleasure.
His hands slide down slightly so his thumbs can brush her collarbones before they move over her shoulders, aiming to drag his palms along her arms instead.
He just kisses her again and again, switching between softer kisses, definitely more teasing, along with a few heavier ones where his lips track her upper or lower lip at a time.
[ see this is how athena dies of thirst through teasing kisses and no making out at all.
but athena does return each kiss more playfully than the last. she lets out some noises of pleasure every now and then, and her arms make way around his neck. honestly, she'd place her hands elsewhere, like rest his palm on his chest, but she'd rather not make him uncomfortable. ]
[ maybe she should be careful what she wishes for?!
Ironically, she might not realise it but it's the noises that make his skin burn and heart pound. It's also sad that she doesn't realise how quickly he can adapt, and the only reason he was embarrassed earlier about him accidentally touching her before is because he's wondered what it'd be like to do it properly.
It hasn't reached a terrible scale yet, no, but he's getting there.
It's when her arms move to wrap around his neck that one of his hands drops to her hip and grips on, but the other seems to only brush there lightly at first, fingertips hesitant as he tries to pull her closer with his other hand.
That's when his hand slides lower (eyes fluttering as he tries to concentrate on moving his mouth against hers so her lower lip is trapped between his and he actually sucks on the skin a little) to trail gently over her thigh. It's a reminder that she isn't wearing tights for once though when his palm drops to touch flesh instead and this time he does groan in the back of his throat. His fingers splay out before squeezing lightly, shaking a little because this is definitely a step up from what he'd normally do. ]
[ WELL MAYBE IF MERLIN ACTUALLY SAID SOMETHING, certain things wouldn't be so sad. smh!
that said, athena does jerk a bit at the contact. she's never been touched there before, and her instinct is to grab him and throw him because it's such a different way of contact-- but she reminds herself that it's merlin. eventually, he'd probably be touching not just her thigh but something else entirely.
but who knows. ]
Ah. [ though it's more of an "mmph" that she makes when she's pulled closer to him. she can't help it. a hand moves from his back to cup his cheek, fingers playfully running through the outline of his ear to tickle him. ]
He pauses to just breathe when she jerks a little, eyes opening just a slither to check her face, to make sure it isn't because he's gone too far but her reaction definitely helps calm those nerves. He has to remember that between the two of them, it's him who has more of a problem with this anyway--though that is slowly crumbling away to just leave him a mess.
When her fingers slide over his ear he doesn't jerk away this time, but it's sensitive. The moan that slips out of his mouth is telling that maybe it isn't just a ticklish spot and the fact that that hand on her thigh shifts to graze his nails over the skin might be telling that he's having a different reaction entirely, not to mention: ] Athena-- [ Her name comes out more of a prayer than anything, like he doesn't know what to do with himself because his pupils are probably dilated, eyes glazed over as she gets under his skin.
It takes willpower to briefly break the kiss, but it's only to slide his hand back up to her hip (potentially dragging her dress a little in the process, but at least that's an accident) to lift her a little. He holds her tighter with one arm, wrapping it around her, and reaches for the back of her knee with the other, trying to hint that she should move her leg.
[ why would she slap him for something like this? she wouldn't... because in all honesty, she hasn't even noticed because her mind is just preoccupied with merlin and his everything.
she moves her leg to get a bit more comfortable, whispering his name as she does. her other hand moves to cup his other cheek, and she just rests her forehead on his. ]
[ Look he's just getting used to the fact that this is okay... There aren't expectations of keeping your hands to yourself, to keeping things as tame as possible these days. He's breathing harder when she settles against him, mouth dry as his hands slide up and down against her sides to soothe himself as well as her.
His eyes close, a soft smile forming on his lips when she holds his face and whispers that. ]
I love you too. [ It's in the same tone as when his voice dipped before too though, low and a little croaky. ]
[ his hands are so warm... she loves that, too. it's really strange to be touched like this, but she's getting used to it at a fast pace, for some reason. probably because they keep meeting up at the rooftop like this. and they'll probably keep doing things like this so long as they're happy together.
she kisses his forehead and just rests her chin on his head for a while. this probably means that her chest is so close to his face.
gomen.
but she's trying to relax and catch her breath, too. ]
[ He makes a small noise when she shifts like that and okay jesus. He needs jesus apparently. His fingers curl into her dress, twisting the fabric a little as he grips onto her. His teeth slide over his tooth, digging into the skin and he closes his eyes tight.
He tries to keep his head deathly still, but uses his hands to try and calm himself by flattening them against her sides, dragging them down to her hips then drawing forward until they're both against her legs. His thumbs rub circles there. Given how close she is now though, she'll probably feel the quick puffs of air against her skin as he tries to breath normally and fails horribly. ]
Athena... [ He starts softly, heart feeling like it's lodged in his throat because honestly he's only admitting(?) it now because of how she seems to be okay with this but.
It takes him a moment to gather the courage too. Even then, it's really quite quiet. ] Can I touch you? [ Obviously he doesn't mean where he's already touching her but there we go-- Hope she didn't expect to catch her breath too quickly. ]
[ she slides downwards, making some distance between them just so her breasts don't end up flattening on his face when she leans down. with a question like that, she can't help but just stare at him. an answer isn't coming at all, mostly because her mind's gone places already. if he pays attention to widget, he's already shut off again, too.
she closes her eyes and a hand moves to hold merlin's. if he lets her, she'll lead that hand to where her heart is at first. it's beating wildly, as if it's about to pop out of her chest, but her grip on him is light. and there's even a pull downwards coming from her, too.
[ His own heart is hammering when she slides back down and he finally opens his eyes again. He has to blink a few times to look at her, but actually forces himself to not look away like he wants to. It's embarrassing that it's taken him this long to ask when it isn't the first time he's thought about it, but given their positioning before it was a little more difficult to... ignore.
He swallows when she takes his hand, having no problems with her leading him along. He watches quietly, his own eyes fluttering when he feels her heartbeat under his palm, mirroring his own which feels like it might explode.
It's the pull downwards that gives him the courage to slide his hand against her. At first the touch is light and hesitatant, following the curve of her breast rather than actually putting much pressure there. It's only when his fingers brush underneath that his eyes flicker back up to her face. His breathing speeds up as his wrist tilts a little until he actually cups her breast instead and gives it a small squeeze. ]
[ her mouth opens slightly to let out a breath, but it's not heavy, at least. she seems calm on the outside, though she's totally nervous and she has no idea what the hell to do now. is she supposed to ask if she could touch him back? for all her talk about the future and making out and all that, even she has no idea what to actually do at a time like this. . .
she lets out another breath at the squeeze, eyes still closed because really. just looking at him or where his hand is would just make things more awkward, and they're already progressing and going somewhere with this and she'd rather not ruin it. ]
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I don't know who Rapunzel is, [ she murmurs, though she kind of remembers the name from lee's hot or not network post. ]
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You don't? [ With how things have gone here he doesn't expect that. Given how everyone he's talked to seems to know Athena... He. Doesn't know how to explain who Rapunzel is either. ]
I... arrived at the same time as her. [ And they're actually pretty close, but he doesn't know how much he should say about that when Athena won't even look at him. ]
...Hey. [ His hand reaches to her chin, trying to get her to tilt her head towards him again. He's learning though, because it's probably the third time he's seen this reaction now. ] You haven't done anything wrong.
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she really doesn't want to mess things up anymore. she's done it at least twice already, and it always hurts. it hurts her, it hurts him, and she just feels like a total wreck when she thinks about it. ]
Are you sure?
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Instead, he lifts the hand that's holding hers and tugs gently. ]
I'm sure. Come here?
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something else entirely would spruce her jealousy, but not this. . .
she's a bit unsure of everything right now, but she does crawl over to where he is, at least. ]
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Sorry, I just got some... bad thoughts in my head.
[ "Bad thoughts" he says, but he's too busy burying his face against her neck and holding her to look for her reaction to that. ]
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she returns the hug with a half one, just barely touching him because, as mentioned, she's a bit disturbed. ]
Bad thoughts?
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He tilts his head so his cheek is against her shoulder, and he looks away from her when softly he admits: ]
Weren't we on the couch when I accidentally touched your--you--you know.
[ If she looks she'll notice even his ear is red. ]
...Sorry.
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And?
[ oh, right. dude from the past. this is too much for him. athena can't even do anything but forgive him for it because it's not like he could help himself, so-- ]
It's fine. Don't think about it. It's not like you knew, either.
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That isn't what I mean--
[ Athena please... don't make him say it.
He does at least look back at her, hands shifting to rest against her sides to try and stop her from being wonky here, keeping her upright as he leans in to kiss her jaw. Hopefully this time she won't say anything that confuses him before he makes it to her mouth to kiss her properly. It isn't teasing like before, but hopefully she'll stop being a dummy about how he feels. ]
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kissing her does shut her up, though, and she says nothing, though her heartbeat and widget looking so happy probably says it all already.]
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With his eyes closed he can't see Widget, but he can feel her heartbeat when he presses his hands gently on either side of her neck.
He swallows before his head shifts a little, teeth pulling on her lip gently, almost like a question of whether it's okay, whether she believes that he's okay and that hopes that she is. ]
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she returns the kiss once, and bites his lower lip softly. she's okay.
please be, too? ]
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His hands slide down slightly so his thumbs can brush her collarbones before they move over her shoulders, aiming to drag his palms along her arms instead.
He just kisses her again and again, switching between softer kisses, definitely more teasing, along with a few heavier ones where his lips track her upper or lower lip at a time.
He's definitely okay. Yeah. ]
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but athena does return each kiss more playfully than the last. she lets out some noises of pleasure every now and then, and her arms make way around his neck. honestly, she'd place her hands elsewhere, like rest his palm on his chest, but she'd rather not make him uncomfortable. ]
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Ironically, she might not realise it but it's the noises that make his skin burn and heart pound. It's also sad that she doesn't realise how quickly he can adapt, and the only reason he was embarrassed earlier about him accidentally touching her before is because he's wondered what it'd be like to do it properly.
It hasn't reached a terrible scale yet, no, but he's getting there.
It's when her arms move to wrap around his neck that one of his hands drops to her hip and grips on, but the other seems to only brush there lightly at first, fingertips hesitant as he tries to pull her closer with his other hand.
That's when his hand slides lower (eyes fluttering as he tries to concentrate on moving his mouth against hers so her lower lip is trapped between his and he actually sucks on the skin a little) to trail gently over her thigh. It's a reminder that she isn't wearing tights for once though when his palm drops to touch flesh instead and this time he does groan in the back of his throat. His fingers splay out before squeezing lightly, shaking a little because this is definitely a step up from what he'd normally do. ]
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that said, athena does jerk a bit at the contact. she's never been touched there before, and her instinct is to grab him and throw him because it's such a different way of contact-- but she reminds herself that it's merlin. eventually, he'd probably be touching not just her thigh but something else entirely.
but who knows. ]
Ah. [ though it's more of an "mmph" that she makes when she's pulled closer to him. she can't help it. a hand moves from his back to cup his cheek, fingers playfully running through the outline of his ear to tickle him. ]
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He pauses to just breathe when she jerks a little, eyes opening just a slither to check her face, to make sure it isn't because he's gone too far but her reaction definitely helps calm those nerves. He has to remember that between the two of them, it's him who has more of a problem with this anyway--though that is slowly crumbling away to just leave him a mess.
When her fingers slide over his ear he doesn't jerk away this time, but it's sensitive. The moan that slips out of his mouth is telling that maybe it isn't just a ticklish spot and the fact that that hand on her thigh shifts to graze his nails over the skin might be telling that he's having a different reaction entirely, not to mention: ] Athena-- [ Her name comes out more of a prayer than anything, like he doesn't know what to do with himself because his pupils are probably dilated, eyes glazed over as she gets under his skin.
It takes willpower to briefly break the kiss, but it's only to slide his hand back up to her hip (potentially dragging her dress a little in the process, but at least that's an accident) to lift her a little. He holds her tighter with one arm, wrapping it around her, and reaches for the back of her knee with the other, trying to hint that she should move her leg.
Hopefully she doesn't just slap him tbh. ]
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she moves her leg to get a bit more comfortable, whispering his name as she does. her other hand moves to cup his other cheek, and she just rests her forehead on his. ]
I love you.
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His eyes close, a soft smile forming on his lips when she holds his face and whispers that. ]
I love you too. [ It's in the same tone as when his voice dipped before too though, low and a little croaky. ]
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she kisses his forehead and just rests her chin on his head for a while. this probably means that her chest is so close to his face.
gomen.
but she's trying to relax and catch her breath, too. ]
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He tries to keep his head deathly still, but uses his hands to try and calm himself by flattening them against her sides, dragging them down to her hips then drawing forward until they're both against her legs. His thumbs rub circles there. Given how close she is now though, she'll probably feel the quick puffs of air against her skin as he tries to breath normally and fails horribly. ]
Athena... [ He starts softly, heart feeling like it's lodged in his throat because honestly he's only admitting(?) it now because of how she seems to be okay with this but.
It takes him a moment to gather the courage too. Even then, it's really quite quiet. ] Can I touch you? [ Obviously he doesn't mean where he's already touching her but there we go-- Hope she didn't expect to catch her breath too quickly. ]
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she closes her eyes and a hand moves to hold merlin's. if he lets her, she'll lead that hand to where her heart is at first. it's beating wildly, as if it's about to pop out of her chest, but her grip on him is light. and there's even a pull downwards coming from her, too.
that should be enough of a yes, right? ]
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He swallows when she takes his hand, having no problems with her leading him along. He watches quietly, his own eyes fluttering when he feels her heartbeat under his palm, mirroring his own which feels like it might explode.
It's the pull downwards that gives him the courage to slide his hand against her. At first the touch is light and hesitatant, following the curve of her breast rather than actually putting much pressure there. It's only when his fingers brush underneath that his eyes flicker back up to her face. His breathing speeds up as his wrist tilts a little until he actually cups her breast instead and gives it a small squeeze. ]
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she lets out another breath at the squeeze, eyes still closed because really. just looking at him or where his hand is would just make things more awkward, and they're already progressing and going somewhere with this and she'd rather not ruin it. ]
sweats
god why
because it's the first time he's touching a girl :(
sweats with you
sweats further... just give him a moment now ok
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