post of shame

[psycholawgy]

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[psycholawgy]

[ MERLIN STARTED THIS CONVERSATION!!! ]

W- Well, some people don't just take it to the bedrooms. [ welcome to the future, merlin. ] Some people even do it outdoors.

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[ He only wondered if Ai was into perverts?! Why did it go this far?!

His hands move to cover his face as he groans (in pain!!!) at where this is taking them. ]

Why are you telling me this? [ It's probably a bit muffled, but she should be able to hear it. ]

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[ HOW IS HE IN PAIN WHEN SHE IS THE ONE TALKING ABOUT THIS?! ]

I don't even know anymore! [ she flails her arms wildly. merlin, please think of something else to talk about. ]

here 2 help ur thirst

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[ Because he's the one listening!!!!

He finally pulls his hands down and wow okay for once he's actually red as well. But no, he can't think right now. He blinks a few times, but his heart is pounding because whenever it comes to these things 1 + 1 makes 2 and he thinks of different situations.

I mean technically he touched her boob on the couch if you want to put it like that, Athena.

Which he is now thinking of, thanks. His hand moves back up, only to smack himself across the eyes. ]

Maybe-- [ His voice sure did dip then, huh? He freezes when he realises as well and hopes that Athena is too traumatised by her own mind to notice. ]

gtfo

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[ what the heck. she moves his hands to check his eyes if they're okay. ]

Did you poke yourself or something?!

:* :* :*

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[ There's no protest when she pulls his hand away but... he doesn't look her in the face, almost like he's ashamed. ]

What kind of idiot do you take me for?

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[ she lets go when he speaks, crosses her arms, and looks away. ]

Well, so much for being concerned.

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[ Ah... ]

Sorry. I just... [ Now he's looking away, pulling up one of his knees to rest his elbow there, that same hand slides up into his hair. ] ...ended up thinking about something else.

[ He definitely says that quietly. ]

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[ well, she won't ask what it is if he's so ashamed by it, but. . . ]

So long as you're okay, I guess.

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[ Slowly, so slowly, he drags his hand over his face. His other hand reaches out for hers to try and entwine their hands together. ]

I'm fine, sorry for worrying you.

[ Is he even fine? He doesn't even know. He does at least finally look back at her, though if she's paying attention she might notice that his eyes flicker down and over her before they slide away again. ]

So...Rapunzel likes Jaune.

[ ...Sorry, friend, he's throwing you under a bus to save himself. ]

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[ she feels bad for no reason in particular - it's as if she's done something wrong to him and she doesn't know what, so when he does take her hand, she doesn't look at him and continues looking at her side. ]

I don't know who Rapunzel is, [ she murmurs, though she kind of remembers the name from lee's hot or not network post. ]

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[ That makes him blink. ]

You don't? [ With how things have gone here he doesn't expect that. Given how everyone he's talked to seems to know Athena... He. Doesn't know how to explain who Rapunzel is either. ]

I... arrived at the same time as her. [ And they're actually pretty close, but he doesn't know how much he should say about that when Athena won't even look at him. ]

...Hey. [ His hand reaches to her chin, trying to get her to tilt her head towards him again. He's learning though, because it's probably the third time he's seen this reaction now. ] You haven't done anything wrong.

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I've seen her posts, but that's it-- [ we aren't friends: she would have continued with that but now she's facing merlin and she doesn't know what to think.

she really doesn't want to mess things up anymore. she's done it at least twice already, and it always hurts. it hurts her, it hurts him, and she just feels like a total wreck when she thinks about it. ]

Are you sure?

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[ It's partly why he lets that topic drop though, before she worries about anything to do with that because in all fairness, he doesn't want her to think he's trying to make her jealous or anything like that either.

Instead, he lifts the hand that's holding hers and tugs gently. ]

I'm sure. Come here?

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[ athena can be insecure, but she doesn't see the need to be jealous over something like this.

something else entirely would spruce her jealousy, but not this. . .

she's a bit unsure of everything right now, but she does crawl over to where he is, at least. ]

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[ As soon as she's close enough his hand lets go of hers to wrap around her waist instead, pulling her as close as he can. It probably means she half falls on his lap, but that's fine when he wants to hug her tight. ]

Sorry, I just got some... bad thoughts in my head.

[ "Bad thoughts" he says, but he's too busy burying his face against her neck and holding her to look for her reaction to that. ]

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[ ah, oof, down she goes, and she's kind of weirded out by this whole thing. thanks, merlin.

she returns the hug with a half one, just barely touching him because, as mentioned, she's a bit disturbed. ]

Bad thoughts?

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[ Don't think about these things in the first place if you can't help it?!?!

He tilts his head so his cheek is against her shoulder, and he looks away from her when softly he admits: ]

Weren't we on the couch when I accidentally touched your--you--you know.

[ If she looks she'll notice even his ear is red. ]

...Sorry.

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[ is he trying to be sweet when he tilts his head or what-- athena just winces at all of this. ]

And?

[ oh, right. dude from the past. this is too much for him. athena can't even do anything but forgive him for it because it's not like he could help himself, so-- ]

It's fine. Don't think about it. It's not like you knew, either.

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[ No......... he's just shy. What the hell Athena stop being so judgemental? ]

That isn't what I mean--

[ Athena please... don't make him say it.

He does at least look back at her, hands shifting to rest against her sides to try and stop her from being wonky here, keeping her upright as he leans in to kiss her jaw. Hopefully this time she won't say anything that confuses him before he makes it to her mouth to kiss her properly. It isn't teasing like before, but hopefully she'll stop being a dummy about how he feels. ]

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[ no, he needs to say it because she doesn't get it beyond... that. just forget about it, merlin, she thinks. it's not like she can get mad at him for it, as already mentioned.

kissing her does shut her up, though, and she says nothing, though her heartbeat and widget looking so happy probably says it all already.]

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[ No, she can't but everything else she can... potentially. He doesn't know. There's too much of a difference to what he's used to so instead he just concentrates on what he does know.

With his eyes closed he can't see Widget, but he can feel her heartbeat when he presses his hands gently on either side of her neck.

He swallows before his head shifts a little, teeth pulling on her lip gently, almost like a question of whether it's okay, whether she believes that he's okay and that hopes that she is. ]

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[ kissing isn't supposed to be the one that makes her feel better, but it does. it's definitely an answer that he's okay, and she thinks that he's doing this to make her feel better. she probably messed up again, but at least they aren't in an exploding conversation right now.

she returns the kiss once, and bites his lower lip softly. she's okay.

please be, too? ]

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[ Well considering she'll be able to hear his heart pounding when she bites his lip in return. He doesn't moan or anything like that, but there is a soft noise in response. Gratitude, as well as a hint of pleasure.

His hands slide down slightly so his thumbs can brush her collarbones before they move over her shoulders, aiming to drag his palms along her arms instead.

He just kisses her again and again, switching between softer kisses, definitely more teasing, along with a few heavier ones where his lips track her upper or lower lip at a time.

He's definitely okay. Yeah. ]

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[ see this is how athena dies of thirst through teasing kisses and no making out at all.

but athena does return each kiss more playfully than the last. she lets out some noises of pleasure every now and then, and her arms make way around his neck. honestly, she'd place her hands elsewhere, like rest his palm on his chest, but she'd rather not make him uncomfortable. ]